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I love you
I love you so much
It hurts knowing that you'll never realize that I do
You'll never know that you are my little angel
You are the most wonderful thing ever
You understand me like no one ever did or ever will
You can calm me down in a matter of seconds
And, dear Jesus, that is something
I don't care that
you are everything wrong about what my mother believes in
I've had my bad run with boys so I guess my heart just decided,
"Screw this."
I'm not sure if it's because of my boy close friend telling me
about his fantasies of him and Chrome Dokuro
or because of your pure perfection
I'm guessing it's both,
but more of the former
I didn't need to fall in love with you to realize that you were my perfect little rose
You're the only flower I'd ever love
I always hated flowers
They were too pretty
But you were that flower with the amazing, hypnotizing scent
I was drawn to you since the beginning
even before the faggotry kicked in
Your scent was so alluring that
I just couldn't resist you
You are my teddy bear
the one with the warmest, most loving hugs
You're one of the few girls who didn't mind when I kissed them on the forehead
You're that girl who can stop me in the middle of my rage and calm me down
I practically die every time you say "I love you." with such sweetness in your voice.
I yearn to hear you say it again.
I want to go after you on that stereotypical rainy day
right before you take the entrance exam to another school
I want to grab your hand right before you reach the entrance
and start monologue-ing about how I want you to stay,
about how much I'd die inside if I find out that you were leaving,
about how much I want to see your smile,
about how much I want to be the cause of that smile
I want to make you happy
like the way you've made me
I could and would go on about how simply stunning you are
and about how I love you

But I can't
If I did all that,
you'd be disgusted with me
You'd pull your hand away and shake your head
You love me, but not the way I love you
And I'm fine with that
I'd stay with you as a mere friend
if that meant making you happy
and seeing you smile
I would gladly accept that fate
Why?
Because I love you
That being said,
I want you to always be happy
whether or not it's me by your side