-~- It has been an overall good day.. & now.. for no reason.. i feel the need to scream out my lungs.. & cry enough to kill me.. I think.. i have depression or something.. Its crazyness.. -~- I'm lost.. Books make me laugh.. -outloud-.. -inclass-.. I laugh at my own jokes.. I said i loved him yesterday.. today i say i was crazy yesterday.. I read *more* than most because i get lonely.. Sometimes I think.. I have no friends.. Sometimes I think.. the my friends don't care.. I get paranoid a lot.. I get major mood swings sometimes.. I get very emotional.. I want love to be the -main- thing in my life again.. I analzy things -he- says to me.. I lie sometimes so i don't have to be rude about things.. I mess everything up.. I cry myself to sleep.. more than occasionally.. I'm obsessed with Mirriors.. I feel quilty when i eat.. -anything-.. I say i'm ugly.. but i secretly think.. i'm prettier than ugly.. I say I don't care.. but.. sometimes.. i do.. I stare at couples sometimes hoping i'll be like that with someone some day.. -~-
Clumsy kisses · Thu May 04, 2006 @ 02:38am · 1 Comments |