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I can't figure out what to do with myself really. I need to get back all my impulsive characteristics back. It's been strange this past week since I graduated, I'm getting that lazy feeling when you don't do enough for an amount of time and you can physically sense the waste of time, but it's like I'm stuck in the middle, because everyone's time schedule has to come before mine, and then when I get the opportunity for something, it's like I've either moved on or it's too late.
The main reason this is happening is because of all my plans I've started to make, once again trying to look for a job after the Blockbuster failure just because I wasn't 18. I've wanted to get out there again and start going for it, I was planning on just heading to the Health Department and getting my Health Card so that way I'm a step ahead incase there are opportunities in food service or stuff. I still remember stopping at that smoothie place and regretting not having it when she asked for it first off, it could have been a clincher for the position, not to mention the Health District was literally two doors down.
It's because of my dad getting on my case about family. The day of my graduation, when Josh's mother and father came over to say hi, they personally invited all of us to come over for Josh's graduation party. I had been weary to even bring up the topic after that fiasco I'd had with him a month or two ago about parties, and my Tio Miguel, and Tias Silvia and Margarita had come to see me, so I wasn't even considering the option. Then he takes me aside and asks me about it. He asked if I knew about it tomorrow, and when I told him I did, he sounded like he made a compromise, because he said, "Well, then let's do something together today then. So I figured that would work out. But then when I slept in on Saturday because I had been up all night fumbling with my new Mp3 player and just being on Gaia, he got mad because I kinda woke up, said good morning, and then was about to head out for his house, 'cause it was past noon.
So now, it seems like I've been afraid to do anything unless the whole family is alright with it, and like I said, when I get the chance, like today for example, I have to stay home because people are busy, Kelly's taking dad with her to her graduation ceremony for the completion of her Master's Degree. Last night she asked me to go through it with this rubric I guess her teacher's going to use. Let me just say, there was so much work on it, I could have dropped it on your head to kill you, it was one of those 3" size binders.
I kinda like this new update for Gaia, I don't know why everyone is so negative about it. Ok, so it has some flaws, but when it comes to things like this on Gaia, especially since it involves so many people and so much work, it'd be awkward if it was perfect from the get-go. There's always someone who has to start those stupid, "Let's make a petition and ask for the old Gaia back!" Wow, ok, when you bust your a** to make a webforum with everything under the sun and make it appeal to over 4 million users, you come back to me and we'll see how you appreciate the effort it takes to build a website like this. I know from experience how tedious work like this can be, not to mention they have to build it so it can accomodate all the web browsers, or people b***h about that. I know that old saying about trying to please everyone, but it's just so immature when the site is free, and they could really care less when one little person has a problem that chooses to blow it out of proportion.
So I've decided to renovate the whole outlook of my journal and a lot of other stuff involving my account here on Gaia. It's mainly because I'm going to change my username in due time. I know that I've had the name "Red" for over two years since I became a memeber way back in May '04 (that seems like so long ago), but it's time for a change. As much as I liked the name, it made me feel isolated that my name had to suit my outfit, always involving Red in some way, and I don't like that at all. There's so many cool clothes on Gaia, and I want to build the best ideas with all the possibilities. Of course, I still expect everyone that's close to me to probably still call me Red, and I encourage it, that way things don't get awkward, and we're all win-win. About my name change, it's something that came to me way back when that movie "Akeelah and the Bee" came out, that one about the girl who trained for the Spelling Bee. Back when it was coming out, Starbucks was sponsoring it or something, and I remembering being in one when I went to go visit Sonja at work. They had all these stickers on the windows promoting the movies, and because it was a Spelling Bee movie, the stickers were strange or difficult to spell words, and their definitions, most of them I'd assume the average person wouldn't recognize.
The one that stood out to me was "euonym", which is a word well suited to a person, place or thing so named, in other words "the perfect username". Why not use a word to describe to best word for something like this? It lets me have the best username by description. xd
Yeah, so anyway, I don't know when I'll fix it, but I'll be sure to make a big deal out of it. Other than that, I can't get over how cool these new emoticons are. I like the llama and the siren the most. The emo kids looks like it was a production of a bunch of people begging for an "emo"ticon for the sad kids here on Gaia who like to ruin the poetry threads with "darkness and corruption overwhelming".
People are so silly. I want to throw rocks at them. dramallama wahmbulance
Edible Substance · Sat Jun 24, 2006 @ 11:05pm · 1 Comments |
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