Well things have been hectic lately and ect. . .and I'm even starting my own project. . .I'm writing a story and I'm trying to make it really sound good. But hey, you never know if I could be able to publish the book! I would never think that would happen though. . .well hey here's another poem! 3nodding enjoy:
I'm so confused of what you are trying to tell me, my heart pounds hard in my chest of not knowing. I just don't know what to say to you, afraid that I will say something out of order. Your not even real, your all in my head. But somehow it's all much too real, I know that you are out there waiting. I haven't even seen or talked to you, but you feel the most realest person to me than everyone I know. I have such a irratating urge to find you, to touch you in some way that I know you are real and not fake. I'm afraid that my life will pass me by as I wait for you, not knowing if you are real. I feel as I go to sleep you are with me, keeping me safe from all harm. I pull out my hair in aggarvation, you are not real. I cry in confusion, what the hell am I thinking? How could I be in love with someone who is not even alive, who is all in my mind and who can't get out. I'm not even sure if it is my mind, being confused is the worst. I break up with every person that I go out with, not knowing they are not you. I will not be satisfied at all unless it is you, and what if I do find you. Will you be with someone else? Now I scare myself, and you too also scare me. I don't know you, but yet I feel I do in my heart, deep down inside you are there. But it makes me think if it's all inside my head, and you are not real, but you are in me. Does that make me in love with myself? No I can't be, I must crazy. Over you, or maybe over myself.
Was it good? Hmm?? 3nodding I love comments!!! Hey this poem has to make you think. . .if you don't get it's ok. Well that's all for today's journal!
Kitsunechan4 · Mon Dec 27, 2004 @ 10:03pm · 1 Comments |