Today, I've been thinking about a bunch of stuff, but the thought of my friends and the relationships I've built with them have kind of been the subject of most of those thoughts.
.... But something I really took notice of was about my male friends.
I have alot of friends in general. But I have a lot of guy "friends". (not like boyfriends or nothing) I say "friends" because alot of times i feel like they dont like me much. For instance, I go to a very small school. My class only has 8 people and only 3 are girls. Out of all my guy friends in that class, only 3 start conversations with me first. Another one will start a conversation if I say something stupid, or he asks a question about something I know about. Then the other one doesnt talk much at all so its understandable. ^^
But one thing I've noticed about my guy friends is that they must not like conversing with me much at all. For instance, I had a really great guy friend. (almost best friends) We talked about anime, and would play games with each other and pick on other poor by standers (on runescape or yahoo games **dont play anymore**). But he would always pick and chose when we could really talk and hang out. This was like 2 or 3 months ago we were close, and now, he refuses to talk to me, and I cannot figure out why. I never angered him or anything, but he wouldnt talk to me and still wont. Not only him, but a childhood friend (male also) refuses to talk to me.
I will admit, not all my guy friends are like that. Some of them are awesome! My friend Adam, Chris, Josh, Anthony, Robert, Shawn, KC and Hiro are really cool. They dont mind talking to me at all and are sometimes the starter of the conversation. (Which is nice really.) But to the other 20, it's like they couldnt care less if i was around.
And I have to admit (even if i dont want to) it kind of hurts and i'm a little dissapointed. I just have to think, is it me? Or is there something more to it and it just kind of happend like that? (Like for no reason at all.)
I guess there really isnt much else I can say or do to change it. Just invest my time and feelings towards those I know care (regardless the gender or whatever) and move forward I guess. neutral
(Note: Don't get me wrong. Not all males are like that, because I have some guy friends who are just the best thing in the world! 3nodding So no, I'm not pointing fingers and I'm not judging everyone. On the contrary. I just wanted to express my feelings about some of my guy friends.)
 Gaaras Bchan · Sun Sep 10, 2006 @ 07:07am · 1 Comments |
