God sometimes I wonder on my sanity. This time of year I seem to experience weird things more then usual... I was told once that the veils between the worlds are the thinest during this part of the season. I don't know, experiences in wakeing hours and then in my sleep drive me insane. I don't really have anyone to talk to about or someone who will stop a minute and listen.
Had to go into work today to medicate. I was alone, I always tell myself it's just my imagination getting the better of me.. but it's diffrent then you think your seeing or feeling something. I was walking down the hall and I felt someone push past though I didn't see anyone. It felt like a young teen person, 10-13 range, soft pressure.. for some reason the word girl came to mind, it's like a split second flash in your head and it's gone. I felt it just walk off and then the feeling vanished. It wasn't there anymore. So brief but so weird... it didn't scare me. I have sensed too many things for most of them to scare me. Only few times I felt a prescene ever in my life that put fear into me.
Part of me says it's not the same little girl... but it makes you wonder. For awhile I had experiences with a little girl at home. I would hear her giggle, and one time I was laying in bed, half woken up by something. Someone was tuggign at my blanket and I pulled it back over me. They tugged again and I sat up to yell at whoever was doing it but no one was there, I heard the giggle and suddenly the covers were ripped off me. Very weird s**t.
And dear GOD! Why do dead people in my dreams ask me why I'm not dateing. I could have any guy I wanted to around here. Theres plenty of horny jerks around if thats what I wanted. I don't know, part of me wants to get back into dateing again. But the type of person I like I can't find... or the ones I like and know don't like me that way. *le Sigh* I'm not the type that NEEDS a gf or bf but yeah. I think part of me just likes to have someone special to spoil and take care of, protect besides other things. Oh well I'm out, this entry probally made me sound crazy as hell. ._.;
KuroiTora · Mon Oct 23, 2006 @ 02:38am · 0 Comments |