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crying crying crying today is officially THE WORST DAY ever! im trying to slow things down a bit with my bf bc i dont think we should be together atm cry y? bc im totally wrong for him and he deserves better. does he believe me? of course not. im gonna drown him in all the debts that i have if he stays with me. i wanna repay it all myself if possible. im having so many problems at home as well. my depression should NOT have to worry him. i dont wanna treat him like s**t either when im pissy. i hate this so much but i want him to do better. is that 2 much to ask? i want him to start school so he can BE sumbody stressed i swear i wanna just get up and leave but reality check tells me "duh u loser u need to get up off ur a** and take care of urself!" i dont eat right and i dont sleep. what kinda example am i setting for my kids when i have a sour attitude bc im not helping myself? i complain that my 3 year old doesnt eat right.....well... *looks in the mirror* oh ya... neither do I! how can i expect HIM 2? i guess i have to sacrifice for a while and have no life so i can straighten my s**t up and stop complaining. my bf gave me waaaay to much credit. i gotta fix things if i hope to even THINK i can repair the damage ive done. i got him hating me pretty much. i kinda said some things i maybe shouldnt have sad but it might be better if we dont get back together. i love him but i think im gonna hurt him in the long run cry y do i do this? i kno ima regret sumthing here and i HATE regrets. i kinda wanna talk to his mom right now and see what she thinks of my decision neutral i wanna kno her opinion which is weird bc once i think of sumthing its hard for me to change my mind bc im EXTREMELY stubborn confused well thats as much as i wanna say for now anyways....i hope i have better news next time. hopefully i wont feel like s**t either...i need to check on my health again stressed ok well i still love u dominic...pls understand what im feeling crying crying crying
...princess feeling like crap...
cry peaches
 princess peachey · Sun Oct 29, 2006 @ 12:30am · 0 Comments |
