Well, my brother gets to go to Japan for a week. I'm very jealous. I wanted to go with him & he said he would bring me with him this time. But I guess it's fine. I've had a lot change in the past few days. I went from one strong feeling to another. To yet another. But things are good now. Because I got everything off my chest. I feel so much better. I got to spend the night with Meliah & Mariah & Bethany was over there. I thought she would be absolutely horrible from what I'd witnessed of her. But she turned out to be really cool. (Bethany = the cousin.) It was alright. But yeah. I put my whole xanga on private. It was good. I'm glad. It sucks. Because I didn't ant anyone to find me out. I'm still keeping the xanga though. Because there has been most of my past year in it. So I'm not getting rid of it. But I'm not posting anymore public posts unless they're something I want just anyone to see. I cut myself off from just about everyone at Union Grove & all other schools. My friends are as follows;; Andrew. Mariah. Melaih. Bakah. Ethan. Amanda. Jessica. and then there's just people I wave at. I mean, Amanda & Jessica are something building up. Because basically we've started over. But if things don't work out, they don't work out. I mean.. when I look at it, sometimes I see Jessica as someone there who's going to kick my a** if I do wrong, in an odd way of speaking. She's never stepped in and just ******** with me really unless it was for that stupid b***h amy or someone else, she's there for her friends & stuff. She's enever really done anything too wrong to me besides the whole thing last year. Anything else was just.. our business. But I dunno. I think that things will be better this time. But I can;t promise anything to myself. Because I know how mine & Jessica's relationships are. But Lately I've been changing. I don't see some things as great as they used to be. I mean.. I look back, & only a couple of years ago, I stopped buying toys for christmas, and now I'm getting high tec electronic s**t. I don't have toys anymore unless they're the care bears & hello kitty things. Because I love those two lots. But I just mean like.. I've changed a great deal over just a couple of years. My way of thinking has improved, my way of writing & typing has improved.. my memory's just going down the drain.. but that's always been a problem. Anything else.. is just details. But yeah. I dunno. I've changed. People change. Conflicts happen. But in the end, most are for the better. And that's now what I believe. In the end, any problem you have is for the better. Because you know that it's happened, and you live off that s**t. You play by your mistakes. You play by your faults. I think that's just like.. the bumpers on a bowling alley thing. Usually, you start out without bumpers, cuz you think you can do it. But then after a few balls going almost straight in the gutter, you notice.. "Holy s**t.. I need bumpers, man." So you get bumpers.. and even though you hit the bumpers a couple times.. after a while you get the hang of it and then your ball starts going stright into the strike zone and you are like.. happy. so like yeah. haha well gotta go andrews dads here peace. <3
Katsuki Hyabusa · Wed Nov 22, 2006 @ 07:33pm · 0 Comments |