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Bloody Lips

I close my eyes
Waiting for a sign.
No more prayers
Too little faith left for them.
My body is worn out
I’ve fought too much.
But still I keep coming back
With a smile on my face.
Yet I am tired
so so tired.
But they wont win.
I refuse to let my light fade away in the night.
I refuse to go without fighting again.
I refuse to let them have their victory cry.

No I wont go back to the blood-like tears.
No I wont go back to the backstabs.
No I wont go back to the lonely nights.
No I wont go back to you.

I wont kneel. No I won't give away my pride.
Life wont break me down.
Love won't destroy me.
You won't destroy me.
I am stronger than the little girl you met years ago.
I will confront you.
I wont take it.
I am better than you ever thought I was.
I am more than your lies said.
Yes I am worth it.

Smile through the tears.
Yes a lie with sweet eyes.
A lie that was discovered.
A lie that broke your heart but not your life.

Throughout all the pain.
The lies.
Broken hearts and tears.
Shattered dreams and goodbyes.
I am still alive.

I close my eyes, feel my heart beating.
The noise slowly flooding my ears.
Feeling my senses awake till the point of going numb again.
Anger flowing through my veins.
Looking at this icy world with a smirk on my face.
Knowing I got to kick back twice as hard so they don't drown me.
Knowing I can't turn around or I’ll get a stab.
Crystal world long gone.
Bloody smile just waiting for more.

Twist my heart.
Give me your best punch.
Take me to hell.
Blow me away.
Give it a try.
Kill me if you can.
Tonight's all over.
Tonight my life will start over.
I've had enough.
I wont take anymore tears.
I wont take anymore screams.
No more pain.
This is your last shot try and take me away.
Bleed my heaven.
Tonight I’ll paint the sky red with your blood.
Tonight I’ve had enough.

Look within yourself.
Play deaf with those that love to judge you.
Play dead with those that want to hurt you.
Let the night caress your tears away.
There's always a new tomorrow anyway.
Let time kiss your wounds better.
Let oblivion give you shelter.

You scarred this soul.
You broke down this world.
You turned pure into unholy.
Damnation angel.
All that's left.
Your turn to remember how to bleed.
My turn to hear you scream.