I need to do something drastic.... i've been feeling incredibly restless lately and need to do SOMETHING, or i'll explode out of my skin (and I don't want to get a tattoo... lol that's a little too permanently drastic). I'm thinking dye my hair bright purple or bright red or something.
Just because of what time of year it is I keep thinking about stuff. lol Stuff that I've put behind me but keeps getting drug up and refuses to stay put. lol. Damn stuff ^_~
I feel incredibly lonely sometimes, and it's not a depressed lonely.. just lonely. I feel terrible about not making it to Jon's party saturday, I really wanted to see jon and erin (especially erin, lol) and whoever else was going to be over there.
I think what I need to do is get all dolled up and sexified. lol. but I don't FEEL sexy right now, and I don't really want to. (I mean... dying my hair bright odd colors is not exactly sexy) I just want to be.... I dunno. Odd, I suppose. I feel odd, right now I think I'd like to be odd. I know I don't compare to half of what lots of girls on campus are, so why try to compete? ^_^
But I could still use a good party. I think I'm going to go party and help college republican's build their float on Friday. If I'm not going to a funeral on Saturday morning up in Northern Illinois.... >_< Yeah, someone I know's dad died in a car crash and her mom was injured, too. It all depends on if my mom says we ought to go or not since it's up in Northern Illinois and all.
oi. i'm going to sleep. Sealab is on again, and i'm waking up in 5 and a half hours so i can get some work done before class..... blargh
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