DO NOT READ!!! THIS POST IS HORRIBLY EMO!!!
Lately, I've become aware of the fact that I am a nothing. I don't deserve to live.
I want to die.
What do I have to live for?
Nothing.
I have no one.
My brother, my only attachment to this world, has abandoned me.
My parents are probably going to split.
My dad's a drunk and yells at my sisters. He calls my mother a "******** c**t" and threatens to leave.
But am I allowed to cry?
No.
I am supposed to be strong for my sisters.
A good example.
But I cannot. I can't stop crying. I have been weeping for more than three hours.
The tears keep coming.
A torrent of my pain.
The pain that I have hidden for so many years.
How long have I been lying to myself? To others?
I can finally admit it.
I'm dying inside.
I want to die.
I'm a whiner.
I'm a loser.
 Jew-bacca · Fri Mar 23, 2007 @ 03:10am · 2 Comments |
