For many know me as a non-believer, I don't believe in a God/Goddess or lucifer for that matter... but in truth I used to believe there was something or someone taking care of me from Far away, I used to be Christian myself when I was younger, but I no longer believe in it or I keep saying I don't so I will eventually know that I will have no faith in the Christian or Catholic religion, because nothing good had come when I did believe it, I INFACT DO RESPECT ALL RELIGIONS NO MATTER WHERE IT HAD COME FROM BEFORE or ORIGINATED... just don't force or get me to believe it... I'm tired of believing in something that has hurt me more then helped when I needed help... sometimes I do believe my Papa is watching though as I still struggle through life, but I try to make my life better even though it doesn't seem like it... even though I'm always sad and such. I really do try though... I try for my Papa... (R.I.P Grandpapa, he died when I was very young around when I was 2-3 years old) He's the only one I'll believe that watches over me from the heavens, I guess you can say he protected me once, I tripped over my feet once and fell down stone steps without feeling anything...I wasn't hurt or anything, not a scratch... so I can believe that he's still around every once and a while... I'm just a hopeless believer I guess, I don't believe in the religion, nor the Church itself as a saviour to ones self... but its really hard to tell what I believe in right now since I've lost faith, hope, and the courage to believe in most anything anymore... I guess you can say I am and am not Religious... My GrandPapa and Me at 2 months... Photobucket Me now; Photobucket photobucket photobucket
Note/message to Grandpapa: I miss you Papa, Even if I didn't know you very long... I miss you. R.I.P GrandPapa... hope the heavens have gave you your own garden and hummingbirds and happiness again... I will try to succeed in Life even if I end up alone... I have friends now that care even though they're not local friends. they care... I hope your still watching over me GrandPapa..
Angelic_Dreamy_nightmare · Sun Mar 25, 2007 @ 02:58pm · 0 Comments |