Another fight with my dad brings my esteem lower once again. it never fails everytime i talk to him i feel worthless. i wonder if ill ever make him happy. will i ever be good enough in his eyes. i work so hard to make everyone proud but i feel like im falling apart sometimes, like i just have to many things that i have to be. i have to be the responsible older sister and the well mannered daughter i have to be my family's example the first one to go to college. but under it all i have to be the protector of my siblings and their closest confidants. im am the couselor to my friends. there is just so much i have work and school and when im home i have to clean and put up with people saying im not good enough. well journal i will write again soon.
CloudsFall · Thu Mar 24, 2005 @ 12:22am · 0 Comments |