Well, it's been a while since I've last put in an entry, but now that a majority of the crap in my life is out of the way, I can actually find the time. My mom and I have finally moved away from my dad, and things are, in truth, a whole lot better for us, with exception to the occassional stressful situation, but that's to be expected in any household, I suppose. Anyway, Dad's having a few problems coping, but he's at least attempting to start a relationship with me, but now, I don't know whether to be glad or angry, you know? Why now? Why not years ago when I actually needed a father? Now, I've gotten so distant, I can't even look at people the same. Sure, I have a few close friends, and my mom and I get along all right, but I just feel....disconnected. Like I'm trapped in some corner of my mind, trying to replay all the things in my life that ever hurt me. I can't stop remembering, and it's driving me crazy. The bad times are over, but it's like I keep bringing them back... I really just hope that once this is completely over, things will start to turn out for the better. I'm stressed beyond belief!
--How many balls does it take to kill a cow?
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