ok here is my problem I really dont knw if i can go on like this. Im not saying I have a bad life hell I have a good life with a perfect girl and great friends but unfortanetly I dont think they can help.My family seems to be kinda against me and my girl so you knw that really hurts.And when my parent gets home all I hear is bitching about work then she takes it out on me which is starting to get to me again and Im also not doing good in school so that just causes more problems.I have been reminded that im an alcoholic a chiminy when it comes to smoking and a decent size pot head and unforntanely I cant stop I can for a little bit but they it just starts up and I get more and more dependet on it and it gets harder and harder to stop.Then there is my suicidal streak that doesnt seem to want to go away no matter how hard i try as im typing this i am bleeding from a new cut on my arm........I knw im just bitching and people who might read this might go well that doesnt sound to bad and it isnt I knw that but just so much happing at once with some other things that i dont feel like going into descosion are happing and I really dont knw i i can take it I would like everything to stop for me and if that means death then I would gladly walk that path...........Im not to proud of that but its how i feel if anyone feels like helping or at least talking to me I would like that though i dont knw what talking would do but destract me hell maybe all I need to do is just leave where i am and start fresh but unfortanetly I cant do that yet..........well for thouse who have actually read this i thank you and hope maybe you could knock some sense into me or atleast pass the drinks my way =/
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