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my life story
i remember when i was little i was a cry baby, complainer, greedy, and didnt care about anyone but myself. during that time, i was in special ed with ppl who had disabilities besides me. i was far away from my friends and i felt like no one cared about me. even the mistakes i made i regret them but its too late for me to change it. i been in special ed for 10 years and suffered those years trying to c if i can make my future become better than my past. before i always kept letting the past control my life and instead of letting it go, i kept it since high school. yea i have made mistakes of saying stuff that i never should of said but here is wat everyone should know........ we learn from our mistakes so then we wont do it later on. when i was in middle school, my grandma died and everything went wrong. my mom side of the family almost killed her and her twin sister. i was so depressed that time because she never gave me a hug but instead she gave me money sad i havent talked to my cusins for 7 years now now i just wish that i would c them again. my heart have been in pain and yet i try and try to tell my parents about wat was going on. but everytime i say something, they say *SHUT THE ******** UP AND LEAVE ME ALONE, WE DONT CARE ABOUT YOUR TEARS, CRY BABY, U R STUPID, U WILL NEVER SUCCEED IN LIFE, U R A FAILURE, A WEAKLING, and so much stuff that i cant say. In high school, my parents were too over protective that i had to learn stuff from my friends in high school sophomore year. i never ever hanged out with friends until i went to a public high school that year. a lot of stuff happened to me that i wish never happened. Even now in college things are hard. i got robbed in november 2008, got sexual harrassed on december 20th 2008, and struggled in my college classes. no matter wat i have done someone would always bring it up and push me to the limit of losing my mind O_O i lost my temper in the 3rd grade and 11th grade. when i lost it, my kind caring self was in a cage in this girl body, while my anger controlled my movements. if u saying im crazy u dont knw the half of it. i was tired of being nice because ppl took advantage of me and it wasnt pretty. so i became somewat of a heartless in 2008. From february 2008, i saw a demon that was darker than night itself and had blue eyes darker than the sea staring at me and went to the front door waiting for me to do something. at that time i had 15 coming nightmares i saw myself as a spirit and my body couldnt move i yelled for help and no one came. i tried to open my eyes but i couldnt i said in my sleep " THE DEVIL WILL NOT WIN" the nightmare weakened and i was alive again. so yea the bible is true, the god and devil r real. the day before that, i tried to change my ways but my parents could never understand me so yea -.-


anyway this was like a short history of my past

holy esha aka waterkatninja





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