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(this was meant to be posted last night on sunday 6-8-09)

I know for a fact, that in every form of suicide, is in fact 10 minutes, whether it be by hanging, shooting yourself, OD, or slitting your wrist, or even jumping off a building.

10 minutes to fully hang yourself, to lose all the air and die, or even if your neck was broken still 10 minutes.

the shooting yourself, u say, that it is instant, just pull the trigger, the true 10 minutes for this, is before the trigger is pulled.

in OD it is in the middle of the OD, this is only when it is intentional.

slitting your wrist it is after after u do the cut.

the jumping off the building, there is no way for help, its alot shorter than 10 minutes, so this doesnt count, u make it 10 sec

here is wat happens during those 10 minutes, only if it is not over your job/business, jumping off a building isnt 10 minutes might be a minute or not even that, but its basically the same order

10
9
8
you think of your family and friends, those close to u, and how they would be better off
7
6
5
you start to get dizzy and weaker, and a pain starts shooting all over your body
4
3
2
you think of what pushed u this far, or who
1
for the first 30 seconds of this minute, your life flashes before your eyes, the different choices you could have made, that could have probably made your life better, remember there are still 30 seconds left before u black out

here is the 20 seconds before the last 10 seconds, the pain is surging, and it hurts so much, u can bairly bare it, the phone is next to you, you can easily call an ambulance to save u, u choose not to your determined to do this, the pain is so much tho, this doesn't count for the jumping off the building of course

9 secs
time, space, everything seems to slow down, the pain is gone, you feel relaxed, u see everything around u in a new light, differently

1second
you may say, that is such a short time, it is, and it Isn't, here is were u look at your life and your choices, and if your willing to repent for them, to ask for forgiveness and mean it, to say your goodbye

what happens after this, no one knows, suicide is murder, it is murder to yourself, which murder is a major sin, against one of the commandments, do not kill.

so after the 10 minutes, after u lose consciousness, no one knows what happens, u may die, some one might find u and save u, and u live, u might still go to heaven for eternal peace, or hell for eternal damnation

after those 10 minutes, it is up to fate, it starts a branch thats crossroads are not of your making.

which ever one of these cross roads u go down, there are only 4,
live, die,heaven or hell

In live after your saved, its your own choices again of what you do.

hopefully you make the right ones.

I myself, i already know what path im going to take, whether i do it or not, it is for me to know, and you to find out