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I hate this body so much. I hate having to be like this. I feel trapped all the time. I cant go out for sports or take of my shirt or do anything like a normal guy. It's like I am stuck a world away from where I want to be. I want to be able to hold my girlfriend's hand without bringing her any shame, and have her be able to say proudly "This is my man! I love him with all my heart." In front of anyone and not caring about their response. I want to be able to carry my Jessie around in the ocean without a shirt on and kiss her passionately not caring who watched. I just want to be more of a man then shes ever had. One who will not only love and care for her but scream and yell how much I love and care for her. Defend her from everything coming her way and treat her like the queen she is. But for now that is impossible and I remain trapped.