I finally found one.
someone that I like. I wasn't sure if I "liked him" liked him, but then I realized, I did. very much.
I finally asked him out, and we went out for about two weeks, all of which was spent far away from each other due to vacationing. the minute that he saw me in person again, he began to hint that we should break up, he told me he would be moving again. this was shocking, and saddening. he told me that he wanted to break it off because he didn't think that long distance relationships would ever work. they do. my sister has one right now. she's been in that relationship for 4 years. it is her best so far. he claims that he hates long distance, yet he continues to date people on the internet, who are farther away from him than he would ever be from me.
I talked to my sister, who has far more experience in relationships than I, I told her that I was acting happy, and slightly flirty with him, she told me that this was normal that I would feel happy and flirty at the beginning of the relationship... c: he only ever acted flirty through text. she told me that she hypothesized that he merely loves the facade of having a relationship. saying that he has one. (which he frequently brags to other people that he does.) talking about his significant other to people that probably don't care. talking about how they are so perfect together. but only when there is no face to place with those words. he's had another relationship with a guy before we were going out, it was over the internet. which was very long distance. which, if memory serves, never work out in his opinion. however, he possessed more feelings for him than he ever did me. I could tell... he told everyone about him. he told everyone how many interests they shared. how many wonderful conversations that they had together. never before had he expressed such opinions about me... ever.... it was one sided... that's what I'm beginning to believe.
I still have feelings for him. he has none for me. this hurts me. that is all I can say.
lacrimosa apatheosis · Thu Jul 22, 2010 @ 04:16am · 0 Comments |