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This morning I woke up to an extremely loud bang, I tried to ignore it and continue resting, til I hear my mum sighing, or crying, it was weird, so I was like "Are you alright?" down the stairs. "NO." was the reply.

Basically, she had felt sick and gone to the sink, and after that, she woke up on the floor.

My mum hasnt passed out since she was a kid.

She kept trying to be sick, and her body was making her feel sick but she couldnt physically throw up, I just had to listen to her wretching..

She was adamant that she was fine and I wasnt to worry, but I was scared ******** stiff.
Being only her and me in the house, I would be solely responsible to look after her and she wasnt letting me, I decided to head into the back garden, where tears just poured out of me.

I got myself back together gave her the phone and a glass of water and went to college..
where who I thought was my closest friend here, decided she couldnt be ******** to listen to my problems.
I tried to nestle into her and she was like "what? WHAT? If you're not going to speak, then ******** off."

..So.. "Great I thought. ******** fantastic. Cant even rely on her." So I went upstairs to class, and another of my friends started to talk to me about this class representative thing.. and she was like "Are you alright?" and I was like "..not really." "Whats up?"

My mum collapsed this morning. And I didnt know what the ******** to do.

And the tears came again- I felt so bad that Louise had to hold me and she didnt really even know me that well so I tried to pull myself together again.

When I tried to talk to the other girl agin at lunch, I was blatantly ignored.

So ******** knows what I've done to piss her off.

Yay.