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its been sooooooo long, im in college, and doing things
WoW owns my life and so does my keyboard im practicing when ever the action dies down
my social life is kinda in a rut I have something i need to say to some one and i cant find her, (i got the courage and everything!) lol no im not going to go out with a Girl, naw she just saids something that REALLY hurt me and well proved her right
i shield a lot of things, and i dont know it, i feel perfectly at lvl with people and my face doesnt show that im unshielded, and this and that and blah blah blah moral of the story is she REALLY hurt me and i get scared everytime im around her, and it turns to anger and that needs to stop.
she needs to know that wht might be a MAJOR shield to her is my everyday face... I lived for 7 years in a closet, and i still dont know how to act around humans being me. that being said i love the fact that i have so many interest and so many different friends and she well shot at that, through me...
does she not have a vaired group of friends? is it bad to be very varied?
i thought i had found me, a kid that likes the ability of jumping between interest, is that a way of stopping my progression in any one thing? i dont think so, i mean yea time gets cut up but im still doing better in lots of things (WoW and piano) even tho im drawing and doing lots of other things, and same with friends im geting closer to Hesixu but still making time for others, and i love them all, do i need to cut off my support network just to show that when i forget them they dont forget me?
i did that already i have a huge support network from RETREAT! i have so many people i could tell all my life too, even tho i kinda already did. but still i can talk to all of them about everything
how is that closing my self off? sheilding?
the thing is i have to take her word for it because i dont know if i am or not. it still is a daily struggle to go oh, did i smile when i wanted to? i feel happiness when im happy and i feel sadness when im sad... i just dont show it, not becuase im forcing but becuase the reaction/reflex of communicating it is dead.
its been suffocated for 7 years and has just now started to refunciton, im learing more about my self too, stuff i didnt realize i liked, or hated...
i tend to not hate so much becuase i like nuances there is always something to adore about this or that, i study music the ART of NUANCES and well i kinda do the same thing to other topics its no the win or the lose its the cool stuff that tweaks the game. its the imbetweens that really get me into stuff
and the jump from one to the other, interchangable parts, does that make me too many wholes or just a bunch of peices?
 Weif · Tue Oct 17, 2006 @ 08:32pm · 1 Comments |
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i want to do a WoW fiction invovling a tauren in a group of people, i love tauren.... ill explain later
Weif · Fri Apr 21, 2006 @ 03:15am · 0 Comments |
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yeah like I said, i get busy. Ok for order of busy... first off I dont Danny in Grease. so thats were ive been. and Showchior. Now its production week and ill be free soon. I also have some bad news
My cancer friend died. Died in Jan. I feel soo bad for not being there. ITS MARCH! I dont like being mad at this, its nothing to be mad over, i want to cry, and i cant, and i want to do like he said and laff a little. but i CANT im just. i dont know.
i actually came here to announce a date. but it pales in comparason, ive been praying for a way for him. to get better.... well i gues ive got some work to do.
prayers for Dan, He was the strongest person ive ever known.
Weif · Mon Mar 20, 2006 @ 03:16am · 2 Comments |
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i saw broakback mountain finally~!! it was AWSM! i loved it, well i know i love it, but i dont like it sorta actually
like i whole heartily approve of EVERYTHING but dont actually enjoy it, but its SOOO WELL DON heart heart heart heart heart heart heart omg
and im off for more D&D
most of my time is now spent on WoW im a Tauren (Sandsa) Shaman on Lightbringer, and i love it there......and hate elfs officially
lol WoW is amazing, also i just finished finals and had a chance to catch my breath before the musical starts and i fall off the edge of the world again and stop talking.
another note, finished Eregon and STRONGLY suggest it~!!!!~!
i want to read Eldest badly now~
mores stuff but i feel bad about it, umm later for nowz
Weif · Mon Jan 16, 2006 @ 01:58am · 0 Comments |
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lol after my secound D&D session im quite comfortable with the system~ its a lot of fun, My char is the only worldy character i take a busty cleric and talk people out into my traps and she keeps them distracted.
it bueatiful and i played my flute all yesterday, (the occarina got ANNOYING) and our host didnt have a piano~~
*wishes self could play strings~*
Weif · Fri Dec 30, 2005 @ 05:22pm · 1 Comments |
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I had my first taste of D&D and it was lovely. A bard and sleazy attittude and worldy knowlegde. Im having fun but it feels OOC. oh well. im just recovering right now, sooooo tired. and they are playing FZERO
i love WoW~!
prayers~
Weif · Sun Dec 18, 2005 @ 01:37pm · 0 Comments |
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heeeeey
no i didnt drop off the face of the earth, i had a concert
and i was preparing for another one
and ive been doing extra credit for grades becuase i missed a couple of assighments
and im getting over a huge lull in social life
and well everything kinda cleared up
it was too much this time for me to intervene. i wanted out so i made myself busy, but now that im out looking in. i dont like it. its not terrible, and its ok, for me. but i want to be even more involved, but right now, college is rulling my life: and im not even there
ive made a step forward, and two back. ive gotten a music composition program and have started composin every little thing in my head. on the back side, ive slided in practice hours for piano.
i HATE that piece soooo much! i cant do it! and i wont! everytime i hope, just one measure, it never comes! grrr grrr grr
in my frustration ive turned to a rubics cube. its almost solved (according to my rubics cube guru freind)
im drawing insessently and not even artsy stuff, im just tring to get this great comic out of my head, but i need practice on the chars first.
its gonna be about WoW (im soo addicted) and i wanted a feminist preistess, a no day but today mage who is her best friend, a one liner night elf rougue, and a runt tauren
i have soooo much back story for them~
k's i should go, i really dont wanna but yeah, i should -_-
heart heart heart
Weif · Mon Dec 05, 2005 @ 10:52pm · 0 Comments |
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Well i gave in. I finally bought World of Warcraft. I love it, so much!
sadly tho, i cant play it but like 30 mins a night, beucase its cutting into sleep.
ieth eray harrypotter four rocks! and if ur on WoW im in Light bringer, alliance, Kensho
Weif · Sat Nov 19, 2005 @ 03:58pm · 1 Comments |
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a friend of mine ran away... i dont understand why, I have word, tho, that she is working at odd hours. Im gonna swing by there tonight (at like 10) and just be late.
i hope she is ok, she walked like 10 miles the night she ran.
prayers for her and for my liver cancer friend..
on happier note, i got some new clothes... i dont know about the hair, i kinda want more green less blue... or black... and the shoes... most people dont like that look. u know pants and sandles. lol. well i might change the whip and the shoes;; but to wht? and the hair... it might grow on me. any suggestions?
Weif · Wed Nov 09, 2005 @ 10:35pm · 2 Comments |
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