major hormonal imbalance lately.
all just the tip of the iceburg.
I usually seem happy because it's an act.
most of the time I feel miserable...
which is why I'm always in my corner
cuz I'm lonely or sad
but I don't want anyone to come near me anyways in case they see through my act
or in case I just burst from keeping the emotions bottled up
some people say I need help
but they won't give it to me
and the ones that do help
they only make me feel worse
suicide sounds really good
but I don't wanna die....
just let me live my dreams out and then I'll say goodbye
goodbye to the ones I love
even if they don't love me back
cuz that is how I have been feeling lately
like I have no love being given to me
or if it is being given to me that it is fake
it has happened in the past
why not now?
we remember the past for a reason
even if we don't want to