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My Madness >:D
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poem perfect feb 08
Good morning beautiful its a new day

I open my eyes with nothing to say

I hope you slept well and drempt of me

Cuz when I colsed my eyes its you i see

Your my first thought in the morning it'd seem

And my last thought right before I Dream

When I am around you I dont know what to say

In all my life I've never felt this way

I love your laugh i lover your smile

I love your voice i love your style

The way you breath the way you blink

The way you read the way you think

Things I've been told ******** what I've heard

Your perfect in every aspect of the word





poem pain and torment 08
I once was happy now Im alone

But I'de rather that then to have never known

And every moment we have spent

Was worth the pain and torment

I refuse now to lose someone dear

That in most is my bigest fear

But no one even seems to care

Its like theres no one ever there

Just give me a chance let me explain

Whats going on is driving me insane

Its been too long the words dont come

This situation just makes me so numb

You said you cared was that a lie?

Are you too wishing that I'de die?

How do I know how you feel

If you cant tell me what is real

How can I change what I cant see

Give me a chance just talk to me





poem driving me insane 08
Every breath I take is full of pain

And seeing you drives me insane

When you breath I can not speak

And your touch it makes me weak

And when you speak I see only you

As if nothing else I ever knew

When I dream its her I see

In that vision it sets me free

And the past few weeks its all a blur

I close my eyes and see only her

Just as now my wounds they heal

You opened more for me to feel

And nothing more to stop it noise

Silence now what it destroys

My hearts gone cold My legs gone numb

Pensive now but no thoughts come

I have made my mind and I am done

From you now I will not run

And feelings aside not worth my love

Hate, Spite, Care, regret All of thee above





Poem Jagged Knife 08
Palms sweating heart racing

I think shes gonna die

Her chest tightens gasping for air she begins to cry

Recurring visions cloud her tortured mind

Relief from this she could never find

Slowly her vision begins to blur

Every thought she had thinking of her

Her broken heart she could not mend

She tryed so hard just to make it end

The pain so intense she can hardly stand

Tightly grasping the barrel in her hand

Losing conciousness she begins to fall

Mad at the world she wants to forget it all

But tears of the memory fill her eyes

She regains conciousness to my surprise

Trying now to numb the pain

A jagged knife right through her vein

With out a flinch she begins to bleed

Into death and now shes freed





poem mar 2 2008
Enternal Scar cry

End it now so I can not feel

The eternal scar that will not heal

I gave you my love and I gave you my heart

You spit on both and ripped them apart

I was true to you I never lied

To save our love you never tried

Everyday I wish the pain to end

To realize now were only friends

And when i see you part of me dies

and inside my heart my lonlyness crys

Each night I sleep I dream of you

Untill i wake and see where through

And though i try i cant erase

The past we had I've come to face

Forever and Always i will love you

Even after all that you've put me through





poem mar 3 2008
True Feelings Within My Soul

Hopefully she can be

More than just a friend to me

She makes me feel what I've never felt

Now folding every hand I've been delt

Praying for something new

Hoping today for someone like you

Emptyness now is all I feel inside

Look for another to confide

My true feelings within my soul

Left there now an empty hole

Black as night and cold as ice

To end it now my sacrafice

In my mind I can see

A girl so perfect-my lock and key

But in my heart it is not true

That there is not another more perfect than you

And seeing now I've been so blind

Not to see what I cant find

My beating heart in scilence stilled

And in your presence my heart is filled

But wanting what is out of range

That one person who will not change

My perspective of life on the mend

Shes by my side with me till the end
cry





pics of me and my fiance :D
our hands razz -User Image

Him-User Image
black light o:-User Image
Him and my Nephew[he would be a wonderful daddy]-User Image

ME biggrin -User Image
one of my tattos-User Image
Very old[my boobs are bigger now razz ]-User Image
still old-User Image
Lesbian pic..very very old biggrin -User Image
Older still-User Image


I WILL UPDATE WHEN I TAKE NEWER PICS XP





Art :D..wants more
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This is how i would love my life to be.. without my ******** family twisted

If I could have it my way..I would live in a quaint little cottage with a red door..somewhere in the mountains or by the sea. I would wear a sundress most of the time.. and I would sit under the giant tree with my tire swing. I would write short poems and play guitar in the sunlight. Down by my little brook, I would read and get lost for hours in my books. My garden would be filled with sweet things..and my time spent in that little patch of heaven, would mostly consist of watching the hummingbirds visit and picking flowers to place in my hair.

If I could have it my way..you would be my boy..and I would be your girl. This would be ours..and only ours. We wouldn't dare touch in public places like lovers do..our glances would be that of strangers..but the way my heart beats faster every time I see you..it will remind me that it is all yours for the taking. Then most evidently..I will be attracted to you. We'd be best friends..but better.

If I could have it my way..I could stay up with the quiet..until the sunrises..while drinking tea and watching old Disney cartoons. The day would start when I wake up..and I would never worry about sleep because I would have no where to go, nothing to do, and no one to be. My few friends [whom I love and care about dearly] would be with me almost all of the time. There would always be someone to talk to. I wouldn't grow each day to eventually live the typical lifestyle. Graduating, college, marriage, kids, work..a routine for any living individual. Somehow..I would make a life for myself where I would be sublimely happy..in a completely different way than the rest of the world. I might not make a lot of money, but I would be able to do anything I want..say anything that I want..and no one would tell me not to.



FOREVER AND EVER BABY [[*~7-27-08~*]]



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