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WARNING: this journal is hazardous to your health DO NOT under any circumstance open (But if you must don't say I didn't warn you.).
Never looking back
i wish i could go out there and do my dream. My dream of...becoming a professional runner. No one yet knows of this dreams. No one has bothered to care. No one has bothered to ask..are you...truly happy? Is this your true wish is this what you want from life? No...its not. I'm not depressed or suicidal im not totally unhappy. I have friends that love me and im playing in bands (the trombone and piano) but i feel im living a lie. I want to leave and just live. I feel ill never be happy with my life. Why don't i just go? Because i cant....for one im not yet 18. They need me.And...i could have a wonderful career in store for me. I'm in honors i have good grades i could get a music scholarship to get into a medical school where i want to go....but i hate everything about my life. I just want to train run and draw. thats all. but im not in great shape (i mean im ok tho everyone thinks im fat my family at least does my sisters vegan and super skinny and thats why sorry ranting i hate her and all my family they dont love me) im 130lbs is that bad? No...yesh. and im not a great drawer but i would give up everything to have one shoot at my dreams. If your out there miracle...i need you right now cry . I need an angel to give me chance. I need you.Reading this right now. You're the only one that understands.





 
 
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