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About Morbid

- > Name: Morbid
- > Sex: Female
- > Age: 33
- > Height: 6'
- > Blood Type: ??
- > Race: Demon/vampire mix which includes tiger, wolf, and fox.
- > Smoke/Drink: No/Rarely
- > Sexual Orientation: Pansexual with male preference
- > Piercings: Eight
--- > Lobes (Gauge 7/16)
- > Tattoos: None
- > Marital Status: Married to Inconsolable Masochist.
--- > Anniversary: August 21st, 2009
- > Children: Tsuki (F,9), daughter of Fires22~; and Damien (M,2), son of Inconsolable Masochist

The girl behind the screen

- > Name: Justine M. Herrera
- > Sex: Female
- > Age: 23
- > Height: 5' 7"
- > Blood Type: 0 -
- > Ethnicity: Mutt
--- > Mother: German, Irish, Dutch, ???
--- > Father: Mexican, Spanish
- > Location: Indiana
- > Gaia Member Since: November 2003
- > Degree: Bachelors in Fine Art from the American Academy of Art
--- > Major: Life Drawing
- > Smoke/Drink: No/Rarely
- > Sexual Orientation: Pansexual with male preference
- > Piercings: Six
--- > Lobes (Gauge 7/16)
- > Tattoos: Soon
- > Marital Status: My heart and soul is devoted to Inconsolable Masochist.
--- > Anniversary: August 21st, 2009
- > A little about me:
--- >(In progress) I believe there is no such word as "loved". Love has no past tense. If you ever stop loving someone, then you never truly loved them in the first place. This is one of my weaknesses. When I love someone, I love them with all my heart.. and when they break my heart, I must live with the pain they left me. I never truly move on.. even since my first boyfriend in 2004, or my most recent who lied and cheated. The pain isn't great, and everyday it gets easier, but the mark they left in my heart will always be there... Forgetting them is impossible.

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.... I've been in love before, been heartbroken time and time again. I thought I knew all there was to know; I thought I knew what it meant to be in love... until I met Courtland. Never have I known someone so devoted; so loyal and so willing to do whatever it takes to keep us strong. This boy is perfect in my eyes. He's everything I've ever wanted and more. I don't deserve him, but I'm so lucky he's mine... He sees so much more in me than I ever have and ever will.
....I met Courtland on an mmorpg, Ragnarok (RebirthRo). Yes, we're a long distance relationship. It was fate that brought him to me. I met him through a good friend, Bren(Haku). He was introduced into my life during a period when I was confused, betrayed, heartbroken and ready to end my life. He stayed by my side, listening to me spill my heart out, and put up with my frequent moodswings, often caused by drinking. He kept me occupied, talking me through things until I began to numb the pain away. So many times I tried to push him away, but he never gave up on me... Nobody has ever fought so hard to be with me... At first he was a good friend, giving me a reason to live for a few more days... until I fell in love and he became the sole reason I'm alive today. He saved my life.
....On December 30th, 2009 we met in person for the first time in Chicago, Illinois in front of the Chicago Public Library as he got off The L. I had never been so nervous in my whole life! And when I finally saw his face in front of me, I fell in love with him for the second time. And every touch, every kiss, every moment I spent in his arms after that, I fell in love all over again. The four days we spent together were one of the happiest days of my life... until I got to see him again Summer of 2010 for two and a half weeks.
....I've realized we're not that fairy tale relationship. We argue, we fight, we get upset over some of the stupidest things and don't want to talk to each other for a while. Sometimes I feel like he doesn't give me enough affection, but sometimes he feels the same about me. Sometimes we even break up for an hour.. But in the end we're always okay. We've overcome many things in the past year that many relationships would have been destroyed over, the big one being distance. But after everything, I believe he's worth all we've been through. I still want to spend the rest of my life with him, and I think that's true love. ♥
....Courtland is my best friend and love of my life. We're always together, whether it's playing video games, watching Anime, or just hanging out. I can tell him anything in the world, embarrassing as it may be, and he wouldn't be afraid to laugh. He sees me for who I am, and despite my difficult nature at times, he puts up with me. I don't have to wear make-up or wear nice clothes to impress him, he loves me any way I look. I don't have to work hard to hold a conversation with him. Sometimes we talk for hours, sometimes we barely talk at all, but silence is never awkward with him. We could lay in bed together all day (which we have)- not doing anything sexual, just cuddling, and be utterly blissful just enjoying each others company and the feeling of our bodies close. We may fight and bicker about a lot of things, but I believe what we have is very healthy. When we have a disagreement or someone has hurt feelings, he does everything he can with all his heart to make things better, often forcing us to discuss in depth about our thoughts and feelings, sometimes leading to a better understanding of each other, sometimes making us realize we don't understand each other at all, but that's okay, we're still young.
....When I'm depressed and feel like I'm getting nowhere in life, he's there to tell me I'm wrong and how amazing I am. He's always being positive about me when I'm negative. He loves me the way I am, my body and soul. Because of his constant positivity about myself, I've begun to see myself in a more positive way as well, which has been slowly building my confidence. Although there isn't much of a physical and sexual part to our relationship right now due to distance, we're very close at heart because of our strong emotionally bond. But when we are physical/sexual, it's the most amazing experience. I wouldn't trade a single moment with him for all the money in the world. He is the other half of my heart, my soul mate.
....My father is prejudice and disapproves of Courtland, but I don't care. I've spent my whole life trying to make my father proud and looking for his approval and praise in everything I do. But not anymore. I'm through. This is my life and I'm completely happy with Courtland and he can never change that. He'll have to get used to it, or stay out of my life, because I'm going to marry this man some day.