Lyrics that may/may not relate
"I've got a tight grip on reality but I can't let go of what's in front of me here." - The Only Exception , Paramore
"And I can count 5 times off the top of my head where I sucked it in 'cause you were hanging with him." - I Love You 5 by NeverShoutNever
"It's us that made this mess. Why can't you understand?" - Animal , Neon Trees
"Far too long now i have been waiting,
Waiting for something just to happen
Far too long now i have been thinking
I've been thinking you've got the answer to
the question is "do you feel like your letting go?"
The question is "do you feel like you've lost control?"" - You and Me , Attack! Attack! UK
"Girl you better love what you got, before you go and give it away." - CheaterCheaterBestFriendEater by NeverShoutNever
"Why is it easier to hate than to love? Why is it easier to damn to hell than heaven above?" - Why is it easier? by me
My stupid life - shortened
I'M NOT GOING TO LIE AND SAY I'M PERFECTLY NORMAL.
"I'm okay, I'm okay, I'm okay now, I'm okay [trust me] I'm not okay, I'm not okay, I'm not ********]
So right now, I'm not going to go all ape-s**t and rant about my life or anything, because face it: It's a fact that life sucks but we should power through it. One main reason that I have not died already is because I believe in God the Father Almighty, Maker of Heaven and Earth, and in Jesus Christ his only son, our Lord, who was conceived by the Holy Spirit, born of the Virgin Mary, suffered under Pontius Pilate, was crucified, died, and was buried. He descended into hell. On the third day he rose again from the dead. He ascended into heaven and sits at the right hand of God, the Father Almighty, from thence he will come to judge the living and the dead. I believe in the Holy Spirit, the Holy Christian Church, the Communion of Saints, the Forgiveness of sins, the resurrection of the body, and the life everlasting. Anyways, I believe that God has a purpose for me that hasn't been fulfilled yet and so I will live my terrible life on earth.
Now onto the awesome things.
I am a musician -- AKA: guitar player, singer, songwriter -- actor, and artist. Yes, a lot of things I write are poetry or songs. Speaking of which, check out the link in my signature that sends you to one poem I wrote on wattpad. As for whether I play acoustic or electric, the truth is that I play either, depending on the sound I'm looking for. The kind of songs I enjoy and can sing are limited to indie (Chris Drew, some Plain White T's, etc.) and alternative/rock (Green Day, BVB, etc.) so as you can see, it's always a choice between acoustic and electric guitar for me.
Ten Facts About Me:
10. I am involved with most if not all forms of art.
9. I am Christian.
8. I am a nonconformist.
7. I get bullied at school and home for being different.
6. In this whole world, I only have one true friend who has stuck by me through thick and thin.
5. "Everybody, put up your hands, say 'I Don't Wanna Be In Love'." Okay, the band is poser-ish but the part I wanted you to get from it is that I don't really believe in love. That's right, I've probably done the impossible: I have NEVER had a crush in my whole life.
4. Life quote: see "Footprints" below.
3. The day I completed Confirmation was the day I officially quit self-harm for good.
2. Music is my one escape from the world, the one way I can lose myself and really live at the same time. A way to forget and remember.
1. I am Meredith L. and I am not ashamed to be my own person despite what people say about me.
FOOTPRINTS:
One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky. In each scene I noticed footprints across the sand. Sometimes there were two sets of footprints, other times there was one set of footprints.
This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life, when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat, I could only see one set of footprints.
So I said to the Lord, "You promised me, Lord, that if I followed you, you would walk with me always. But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life, there have only been one set of footprints in the sand. Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?"
He whispered, "My precious, precious child, I love you and will never leave you, never, ever during your times of trial and testings. When you saw only one set of footprints, It was then that I carried you."
