About

I'm quiet. But only at first. I'm a very hesitant, low-risk kind of person. I don't like to put myself out there, at the risk of getting hurt or embarrassed. I like to watch from a distance. I'm easily put off by confrontation, and have difficulty handling rejection. I'm different. I can't cope with losses. I love softball, it's been one of the few things keeping me cheerful the past few years smile only seconded to my closest friends, who mean everything to me. I love old lady hats. If I could pick any decade to live in, it would be the 1950's. I hate whores. I'm afraid of sex. I have little to no trust in guys. I don't believe in love. I'm not the most optimistic person ever, but I'm working on it smile More than likely, I love you. I procrastinate. I'm imaginative, but can't put my ideas down on paper. I draw. I focus on realism, specifically portraits. I find beauty in the human face and body. I've got a lot of improving to do. I'm not very confident, and I'm very stubborn. It takes a near miracle to make me believe that I'm wrong about something. I'm a math nerd. I love math jokes (: even the cheesiest ones. I love super long hugs heart and I love the people that give them. I have very few people that I open up to. And if I have opened up to you, you're not allowed to leave my life. Ever. I love music, and most of what I listen to isn't something most other people listen to. I love to watch people, and observe/predict what they're going to do. I have a horrible memory. I'm very loud when I'm with my friends, but when I'm not, you'll seldomly hear me speak. I love to play cards. I love puzzles. I love to learn about the paranormal. I want to learn more languages. I love the German language, and I'd love to learn Japanese (and no, not because I'm "anime nerd," which I clearly am not. Only because I love the culture and the way the language sounds). I can be a great friend, if you'll let me. But I often detect negative vibes that aren't even there, and if I'm not too attached, I'm easily pushed away. I have paranoia issues. I'm afraid of being alone in open spaces. I try my best not to be judgmental, and I'm very picky about grammar. I tend to slack off a lot. It takes almost nothing to make me cry, I'm painfully sensitive. I love to argue. I pick arguements with my friends just for the sake of arguing. I have a low tolerance for immaturity and selfishness. I believe in angels. I believe in Jesus. And I've accepted Him as my savior. I don't believe anyone who isn't out of high school yet has the right to have sex. I tend to ramble a lot. I'm not very organized. I lose track of what I'm talking about soon after I've said something. I love ferrets. The sound of rollerblades scuffing against pavement has always intrigued me. I find donkeys to be extremely adorable. I love the violin, and I wish to learn to play it some day. I love garfield, the cat. I still buy CDs. I enjoy the music that plays in my jewelry boxes when I open them. I love wearing long, flowing dresses, softball jerseys, and band T-shirts. I'm a person of many varieties. I can't decide on who I want to be. I've been searching for myself for years. I have problems letting go of things. I've held grudges for things that have happened up to seven years ago, but if you hurt me today, I'd forgive you in a heartbeat. I love foxes. I don't watch television. I collect marbles. I love to wear hats because the size of my forehead is infavorable. I love tall people. I find lips the most desirable portion of the human face. I'm sometimes very moody, and tend to almost change personalities from week to week. I zone out a lottt. I love to doodle. Psychology/sociology is my favorite class, and I hope to become an art therapist one day. I'm a problem solver. I love to work out problems and think about logic. I could sit in a room and think all day. I'm terrible at goodbyes, but even worse at hellos. I'm excruciatingly timid and mortifyingly awkward. I'll forgive anyone for anything except myself. I hate when people let me go. I often don't talk much because I am focused on whatever is going on in my head. That doesn't mean I'm not listening. My mind thinks in very unorganized patterns, so it makes it hard to concentrate on just one thing. I love to learn about people. I hate to see them in pain. Pain is one of the strongest emotions I can feel, and I express it deeply in my art and writing. I've thrown away in frustration at least 75% of the art I've ever done. I don't believe in most scientific theories. I don't believe a lot of things that supposedly happened in history. I believe that word is tainted by humans and distorted before it is published. I'm not afraid of being nice to strangers. I'll never assume someone is a bad person if I've never even talked to them. I lose track of time very easily. I'll never live up to pass someone's expectations of me. If you don't believe I can do something, I won't be able to do it. I'm not good at proving people wrong. I'm terribly afraid of rabbits. No joke. I waste most of my time on the silliest things that don't matter, and I lack in the aspect of prioritizing. I have a very weak stomach. Actually, I have a very weak everything. Except for my heart. I can love like no other, but I break very easily. My favorite colors are black and white, but most of the time it's just white. I love to learn about the insane. I love to spend my time in a world that doesn't exist--my imagination. My mind is like a snowball at the top of a very steep hill. It's stationary, but with the slightest push in the right direction...well, you get the idea. Spiritual stories calm me like nothing in this world. I love to contradict things that people say, without first mentally digesting what they've actually said. I'm not very good at coming to a conclusion, so I'll just stop here.