brandon matthew craner 2.18.1992 - 4.29.2010
- brandon matthew craner
my brother. my protector. you have helped me live in this world, helping mom out. you are my brother. i love you with all my heart and more. i just cant believe that you did this. you had more options. we were here. if you knew all the people who care for you, you would have had so much help and you would have probably not have done what you did. i think that part of the reason was because you were tired of being put into the middle of all the family drama. and i am sorry to say it, but i guess it took you doing this to make us a family again, to pull us all closer. we all loved you. i just want to know why you did this. you didn't have to do this. you held it in for so long and i think that you finally snapped. i think that it was all from the pressure. you could have told me something was very wrong though. you shouldn't have left me in the dark. i am your sister. you should have been able to tell me anything. you are happy now, i hope. i hope that all the worries that you had are gone now, i hope that you know how much you mean to me. even though we fought all the time, even though we barely spoke this past year, my heart is breaking. i can't feel anything at all since i found out. i don't even know how to even mourn you. i am only 15. why did you do this? i can't do this by myself. mom always needed you to help her. you were always the strong one. ever since the divorce, you held mom and i together. you were the glue. you also got stuck in the middle of all the drama, and that is my fault, and i am so sorry. i love you. i love you. i miss you already. i missed you when you were at dad's house for a week, and now i have no idea what i am going to do. you would have done so well out in the world, you were brilliant. no matter what people said, you were brilliant. we are going to miss you and your jokes. and now, when i see a monster, i am going to think of you. 2/18/1992 - 4/29/2010 <3
