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A little dew drop, a little sand dust, a little me...
As time is flying, my speed is decreased gradually. Sitting on this bed in this small room typing this crap on this laptop, I actually have nothing else to do but am losing myself slowly.
Is that even true? Deep in my mind, I hope not.
I wish I were a boy. That is worth a laugh! How ridiculous! Yet I am proud to be a girl. How ironic!
My Mama has always told me that I am too timid. She has always encouraged me to be more confident to confront people, to deal with the worst situation. I find myself not able to do that. I just can't! I fear!... I fear failures... I fear rejections... I fear insults... I fear misunderstandings and I fear temper... my own temper...
How lame~
Time is ridiculously fast. I still remember my Christmas celebration 2008 and New Year 2009. Now, 2009 is the old year, no longer new... That gives me somewhat a shiver. I wonder how it will turn out when I become an old lady. Will I nag a lot? Will I walk with my back bending down real bad? Will I regret a lot from my past life? Wow, what the heck lady!? It's like 50 years later! But hey, you never know, it will come to you really suddenly and you may feel like dizzy... 10 years, 20 years, even 50 or 60 years, it does not matter... at least not now...
My consciousness of time seems pretty strong and solid, but it is not. I realize it, I know it, yet I still make mistakes out of it. I still waste time. I still do wrong things. Well, I am still an ordinary human-being. But it is not an excuse...
Heck, what am I kidding? Let's have breakfast!
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