Wow I just looked back on all of this and I always knew I was in and out of relationships quickly, but getting a second look on that I realized that it went WAY overboard.
Relationship updates since then:
I got fed up with Deon being the big guy on campus for me so I dated Drew for 2 weeks and was VERY happy....but it didn't feel like something that would last forever more like something that was fun to have for a while and it would fade eventually
Then Deon seemed to get jealous that I finally dated someone for real since him and was happy so he popped up at my house one day and said that when I broke up with Drew he'd go back out with me again....this after I went to Paris with the school and called him to ask him WHY again....and I found out it was another girl that he liked but didn't wanna cheat on me....So I started subconsiously poking holes in Drew and my relationship....when I finally was single I told him to stay back cause I didn't wanna date him right away and he was glad to hear it....then he went through and kissed me all passionately before school one day when I was finally ready...lets just say I contemplated the loss of my verginity but thank my lucky stars that I didn't cause after school that same day he came up to me and told me that he didn't want to make me into a one night stand but that was really what he was wanting at the moment. So I took off on that and started trying to get over him but too many friends of mine were trying to get me with their brothers to get over him, or trying to get with me themselves if they were guys or get their best friends...lets just say everyone wanted me to date someone....So I got mad at one friend after his pestering me to date his best friend and said that I already had a BF and then saw one of my "fishies" a freshman who hung on my every word and basically was my slave in a lot of ways....I said fetch and he ran....and I just went to him and held his hand and told him to play along with me so I could get away from everyone's pushyness....one month later I lapsed on the Deon factor and kissed him again but that finally ended it and I started REALLY dating the fishy...his name was Matt, and we dated for 3 years and I had to finally break it off cause I couldn't take his constant anger issues and I was his first GF ever so I wanted him to experience life first .... of course I apparently broke it off right after he had gotten my dad's permission to ask me the big question and had started saving money to buy a ring.....hince his anger issues at that point. How was I supposed to know right?
This breakup happened in Feb 09
I met my husband in April 09
Married him Aug 15 2009 and am still happily married with one little baby boy.
We've had our ups and downs but we have come a long way and are currently trying to buy a house. I can't wait to have some space of my own for all my hobbies and artwork in various mediums. I'm kinda glad I kept this journal on here...I never had a diary and this helps me to re-live the highschool life I had and maybe even dive into the feeling for my writing again.
 Nyoko Rai · Thu Jun 28, 2012 @ 08:58am · 0 Comments |
