let me go
but dont let me know
that you dont even want to remember my name
now you can forget about your baby
ive been waiting since the day i understood
ive been dying inside since
this house is poison to heart
slowly killing all i own
soul and heart and then my love
every time i said my prayers
i prayed to be a bird
fly away to anywhere but here
i guess that you had other plans
you told everyone to make their own destiny
but you always filled mine up with your own agenda's
i hope that you feel no regret because if your going to hurt me so bad
i at least want you to enjoy yourself
i took it all,convinced i was deserving
then i met him and found a new understanding
you hit me and abused me
but i never told,
finally i was a good child
because i always lied for you covered up my bruises
why do you think that i played sports
an excuse for me without lying
everynight when you were peacfully sleeping i sat in my room curled up in a ball
i was finally safe
sometimes i would cry
sometimes i would just listen to the night
but i always thought , what if they wake up?
i watched my door but thank god you never came
the noises from anything scared me
but i guess you suceeded, you built me tough
i went to school everyday and while i was there i slowly lost faith in others
they never asked
maybe they didnt want to know
maybe they know
because if they ever found out i would beg them not to tell
i cant have people think of me that way
i am not the fool
though my face was always painted on
and no matter how steriotyped
it was always a smile
now i think i can finally frown but only with him maybe he doesnt want to know
but i have to tell him ... the right time is now
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my name is lydia and i pretty much write about everything my friends say that they like my poetry so that usually pops up when im depressed or upset ....ummm i like music . but my friend p!nkerton and tearsofpearls are the experts of that if you like
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