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okay.. so i finally have today off... woo!
go through my mail from the past week and find all my loans sent in their work, just waiting on the last one now so I can do my taxes... but as I open the last one, it says I defaulted on the last payment and now I owe extra money... so I am like... WTF?
I call them and find out my deferred period has ended... so now I owe an additional 75$ a month.... they can't do anything more, I have used up all my deferment periods...
Needless to say I burst out in tears right after I hung up
so... now I am reallllllllly screwed.... didn't say it then, b/c I was worried about Xmas... but one of my other loans went up in Nov.... an extra 100$ a month... so I have been struggling since Nov b/c of that.... and now this????
What on earth did I do? Is Karma out to get me so bad?
so... the end result is this... won't be on Gaia as much as I am now... gotta get another Job in a jobless market... a sister store to ours needs help, already put in to work for them, and today emailed my boss from home to tell her which other days off I am willing to sacrifice so I don't go crazy....
thought it would be best to tell everyone... I would hate to disappear for a while...
not be able to tell everyone I will miss them...
*sigh* my poor fish are gonna die...
I will try to update later if anything gets better... sweatdrop
 ThunderMistInferno · Thu Feb 12, 2009 @ 05:53am · 0 Comments |
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thinking of getting
infernal 749
2 coins 499 x2
water meat set 199
heart string 99
a scottie dog.... dont know which one! 299
ThunderMistInferno · Mon Dec 22, 2008 @ 06:44am · 0 Comments |
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so my family has decided not to move... which is something I do not agree with... I am PMSing (don't care who knows) so to get this news comes as an incredible let down has cast me into the pit of despair...
I cannot afford to move out on my own... unless a cardboard box comes with insulation and plumbing... my love of my life has space in his home, but I find I cannot accept the offer as it would be encroaching upon his grandmother's kindness and bring me miles and miles from my current job/family...
I also would feel as if I am abandoning my family when they will be start to need me most...
my sister would be buying the new house, which means for the next 30yrs or so, we all would have to be under the same roof together in order to pay the mortgage... but we all would have our own rooms and our parents would be in their own space in the in-law that we wanted our house to have.... as it stands, I still don't know how I would pay for rent in that house anyway.... but it would be a new start of life for everyone...
I don't want to be in this house anymore... not just b/c it scares me some nights and I share a room with my sister still at the age of 30... but the neighborhood too... its getting louder, more congested, and young ppl that walk by the house on the way to school have no respect for others property... they throw garbage on our lawn, pick my mothers flowers, and key the cars in the front driveway... the garbage from the store across from the house always ends up in our yard too... and I am so tired of all these ppl yelling and loud cars going by... I am constantly holing up in my room to avoid contact with the outside world... I just want to hear crickets at night... not steros and police cars....
I should be more understanding...
my sister is going to be burdened soon enough.... she is going for the lap belt surgery in September... her body does not respond to the special medications well and while she is in excellent condition otherwise, it is only her weight that creates a health issue...
I too have a weight problem... but mine was self created... she has been this way since she was small...
I cannot pressure her at a time like this... not when the surgery is on her mind...
no one in my family comes on Gaia, so it doesn't matter what I write here...
and my sweet... *sigh* crying
he really doesn't know why I am so upset...
all week I've been this huge clam.... all I've wanted was to be consoled, but he can't console me if I don't tell him right?
its not his fault I feel this way... and I made it easy for him to be alone... and me... like an idiot, watching his screen name... hoping he'll feel my miserableness through the internet and magically make me feel better.... how sad that is... but so very true... I won't make him feel bad , NO.... thats not fair... I won't bring my troubles on others.... as much as he says he wants to help me, what can he tell me that will make me feel better?
"tell them how you feel" "everything will be okay"
It isn't okay.... and I won't makes waves to hurt others b/c I am selfish...
thats what this boils down too... I am not getting what I want and I am upset about it.... its rare of me to feel this way.... I usually go with the flow and toss my own feelings to the ditch b/c I want everyone to get along... but this time it feels different...
we eventually will move, but it probably won't be for another whole year... my sister says she has some plans to spruce up this house some more before we try to sell it... new floors, light fixtures, accents....
I still feel so badly for treating my sweet this way... he just wants to help... how do you tell someone you love that they can't help you even if they tried?
crying crying
I have work in the morning... another fantastic Sunday at bob's....
*huggles her pillow tight* crying
ThunderMistInferno · Sun Aug 24, 2008 @ 06:55am · 1 Comments |
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okay, so stuck at same job.. haven't found another new one yet, in the meantime, earned my 2 wks vacation, used part of it already... dragon lady came back, so stressed out more than ever...
me and mort are extremely lonely for eachother... hopefully we will go camping together soon... have to see about the campgrounds though and the weather will be a factor...
and if anyone realizes what today was in terms of Special Gaia events... I am extremely excited about it and can't wait to begin...
blaugh 3nodding whee
more breaking news as my life unfolds....
ThunderMistInferno · Sat Jul 19, 2008 @ 08:09am · 0 Comments |
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I must be having super PMS.... everything makes me want to cry...
I got an interview for a job at Macy's on this friday coming up...
completely different job...
hopefully... I will get it and I can hand in my 2wks...
I cant wait.... emo
ThunderMistInferno · Sun Feb 24, 2008 @ 05:13am · 0 Comments |
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burning_eyes
if my job is trying to make me quit, they are doing an EXTREMELY GOOD JOB OF IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ThunderMistInferno · Wed Feb 06, 2008 @ 03:08pm · 0 Comments |
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alone.. feeling so alone.... |
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gods.. I feel like so much crap tonight...
I have work tomorrow... and I really don't want to be there... I wish i could quit, but I cant...
I have PMS and I feel terribly alone tonight... sure, I am talking to mort and my sister is asleep across the room from me... but still... everything seems such a long ways away...
no new house,
no new life,
no new job....
I can only hope for a better tomorrow......
ThunderMistInferno · Tue Jan 08, 2008 @ 05:59am · 0 Comments |
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soon to be filled...
the following list is those individuals that will be getting a xmas gift from me....
working on what it will be...
ThunderMistInferno · Sat Dec 08, 2007 @ 04:27pm · 0 Comments |
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