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Now 'm a pretty tough guy. I don't let anybody push me around, and I'm pratically THE perfect definition of a Free spirit. But that doesn't change me from being human, or in this case, weak. Now I have many weaknesses in the world, like my fear of hights, my two sided self, my Mercurial behavior, my loud perspective, my ignorance, my naive charm, turns out home boy's not soo perfect. But if there was anyone, anyone at all who had my back, it's my bro. Nick Buddy, you are my Best friend. I need you buddy, without you, I'm nothing man. I remember the first time we met, do you? We were at Mitch's, and I was wearing my headband like a bandana. You knocked on the front door, and when Mitch opened it up and I saw you, I instantly thought, "The first Red Neck I've met in this town." I don't think I ever told you that part. But none the less I went to shake your hand. When you saw me you had it going through your head: "Oh great, a city kid poser boy. I'm gonna have to kick your a**." We both new nothing about each other. I never thought that we would have been brothers, let alone friends. It all started when I borrowed a Final Fantasy game from Thomas Anderson, along with a PS1 and Memory card. I got so involved in the game, I loved it's story, couldn't get enough of it. Then I found out that I needed another disk. I went to Thomas only to find out he gave them away. I paniced, and looked around for people who might have had the same nerd interest that I had. Some people never even heard of FF. Then i asked Landon about Mitch. Well Mitch had already moved away so it left just one: You. Landon literally drawed a map to your house and I found myself walking in the darkest parts of Stirling Alberta, Hahahaha. Before I got to your house I five finger discounted a Glossete box as a form of penance or admission to your humble home. The look on your face when I knocked on your door....priceless. I had my doubts that a redneck would have an impecable taste in such fantastic storyline games, but low and behold when I went downstaires, there it was on the television screen: FF7. We instantly broke out into conversation, and debated who was the bigger nerd. I never told you this, but I guess I can now. When I said that I got all these special things on there, I was lieing because I didn't want to look bad in front of a guy who was obviously better than me at this game, Hahaha. There you got a compliment. Then the days seemed to go by, with just you and me. You told me about Quinn, and you told me about god, but I decided to stick to my personal Beliefs and give you wisdom in riddles. Like the most obvious one "You must seek power in God to over come your Demons" (God-You, Demons-Weaknesses), and so you have brother. Problems arouse, and you began to ask questions about your beliefs, and your surroundings. I was there with you, the whole way...I still am. But going on, you then found it more suitable if you were to make your own decisions, to put your prayers into actual actions, and you found satisfaction. Soon you became other things, and I walked along beside you, going my own way, yet still traveling the same road. Then you made the ultamate decision to lead your own life, and you told me. I felt proud of you, not because you decided to go my way, but it seemed that you had finally found strength, happiness, and control of your own life. You were growing up. Hahaha, you still are, I watch, sometimes a tear every now and then just to know that I had the privelage to be part of your life, and that you are a big part of mine. People turned there back on you with your new found strength. They became scared, they began to reject you. Nobody saw your real beuty. Sorry if that sounded queer buddy, but I personally thought it was beutiful...or pretty one of the two. Whatever the case, you found out that people you thought were dependable, were only dependable if you had followed there standards. Still I stayed with you, wanting to be there for you if I was ever needed to be your best friend. I didn't love you for what you believed in, I loved you and still love you for who you are. Everyday I go to school with a sad look on my face, or a bored complection. Most of the time you thought it was me thinking about Alicia, but truth be told, whenever I had days with you, I new they were going to end, and I would have to spend another day alone. Now I wasn't alone alone, but inside I was, you know? It just isn't the same without you buddy. ********, I'd give my life let alone my balls for you if you needed them.....just nothing sexual, okay? Hahaha. No but really, remember that one day when we were at DQ with Krysta then on the way home I was listening to Lonely Day and I instantly put on this glum look? By the way I thought I hid my sadness well, but you noticed my sadness didn't you? Sneaky b*****d, Haha......I was sad because the day was going to end. Tomorrow I wouldn't get to see you. My fun would end. I'd be lonely again. Man I'll be honest, who needs a girlfriend when you got brothers like you man. As long as I can make you happy, I still feel like the number one guy in life, cause I make a difference. Atleast I hope I do. I do my best to take the weight off your shoulders buddy. I do all that i can for you. I hope you know that. ******** I got something in my eye.....you're an a**. Anyway, Nick, you can always count on me to be there for you. If you need anything man, you know where I am right? In your heart. I'll always be there for you, and you will always be in my heart man. This is for my second in command, my Closest Brother, and My Best Friend. Thank you Man, for everything you have done for me. I will always love you, no matter what happens. What are Brothers for? Right?
Ezekiel the Merciless