Damn the soul! Damn the heart that keeps beating its way through my chest, his name whispering through the darkness of the night. A cold sweat covers my face as I roll over and try to forget you. I call and you abuse me. I try to shout that I hate you, yet the only words that escape my chapped lips describe how I love you. I'm obsessed. I cannot move.. I reach the top drawer on the right hand side of my bed and pull a knife. Oh happy knife! Your blade shines back at me, a glittering shield of happiness that promises eternal life. If I die, will his memory die with me? Will his face fade away on the evening tide, like all other dead pieces of the sea? If I saved each tear shed for you, I'd create another ocean. An ocean of dreadful memories that I can no longer keep inside. I watch the blood stream down my arms, each trickle symbolizing a part of you leaving me. Your in my blood, your in my heart. I want you dead! I hate you most! I hate the words you say, the games you play, the way you kiss and the way you touch. It's all like poison to me now. Will you still listen to the music when all of us are dead? When I no longer play the notes of freedom and love? Will you recite the words I give to you and keep them in your soul? Or will you cast them away like you tried to throw me away! Like hell I'm never really gone!
You try to cry, you try to tell me you still care and then take it all away> Once best friends now enemies? Well rip that dagger out from my back! I'm never letting you play again! I'm moving on you son of a bi***! That's right I said it, now go f**** urself I'm done!
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If you never say the words you want to say at the moment you want to say them, time will take the moment away and you'll be lost forever.
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