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Okay so this journal entry has no other purpose then to be an outlet for me to vent my frustrations with life in general, so for those of you who don't want to hear me complain you're excused, for those of you that are gonna stick around, don't say I didn't warn you.

Alright, I'm so sick and tired of always being tired and feeling slightly sick. I'm grateful I didn't actually catch the flu that's been going around, but man my allergies have been bad. On the funny side of it, whenever I blow my nose it sounds like a flock of geese is in town...so yeah. About being tired...the past couple weeks at least a few night of the week I've been up till at least 2am then had to get up at 5am to go to school and on some of those days I had to go to work that night. What am I doing to myself here? I love to hang out with my friends, but I'm tearing myself apart here. I need to find a balence. Work, school, homework, friends...where the hell am I supposed to find time to sleep? Which leads to my next problem. School has been suffering. Somedays I'm so exhausted all I do is sleep, but then I have to neglect some other obligation and school is the one really taking the hit.

Hey, I know it's my fault, so I don't wanna hear anyone saying "I told you so", I just need to get this off my chest. Everyone who has ever given a damn about me keeps telling me that I have to stop bottling up my emotions, so here it is. I'm frustrated with the current level of difficulty of my life. Yeah I know things could be alot worse. It doesn't change the fact that I don't like how things are going. I'm supposed to be job hunting and apartment hunting, but at this point I can barely scare up the will to get out of bed and keep up my usual routine. I can't wait until my vacation, but even then I won't really be able to completely relax because that's when I'm gonna move. *sighs* I could really use a break, but one that isn't gonna cause me problems down the line. Okay thats it for now. I'm done ranting and rambling. Guess the next step is to try and find some solutions to my problems. For those of you who actually read this...please pray for me, if you pray and if you don't...then please just wish me luck.

-Yume