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Insanity_Of_The_loveless
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Posted: Tue May 29, 2007 @ 12:02am

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	.Mirror. -Finished- The reflection that I keep seeing. I'm not satisfied. Tired of pills and the abuse. Some people don't know about me. Yet you are willing to say you're my friend. Thank you. My mind is corrupted. Always will be. I live in my own altered universe to make myself feel safe. It's wrong. Everyone thinks I'm a failure. I might as well be. I am who I am. No one can change that. I want to change for everyone. I'm trying, please understand. For those who I have hurt... I'm sorry. For the lies I have given some people. I could never change that. I'm sorry for those that I pretend to be your friend. You don't deserve that, but I'm too nice to say no. Call me whatever you want. I don't care. I hate myself. That's a fact. People love me and yet I tend to push most away. They keep coming back and I pretend to care. Heartless. For those who I truely love. You are always on my mind. I don't have it as bad as some people. But this is my life. Mine. I'm a self-centered b*h. Nothing good about Seth. I lost my true self. Behind so many masks. The decisions I make. They seem to be wrong. I want to make my own path. I'm to weak too. I shall follow. My sudden fears. Are the weakness you point out. Many people take chances. I stay my distance. I do have a family. Some people are not lucky to have. Yet, I'm so vain. I would trade my family for something better. Tired. The fire that I have inside. Burning out slowly from the past. Nightmares. Scar my human mind. Some people say to just end it. No. I want to make a difference. I have changed peoples lives. As have they did mine. I want so much more. That makes me selfish. The greed that everyone has within. Yet, people would point a finger. I just wish to drift away. So for those who care. I am a burden upon your wings. I will slowly and quickly dissolve. Then there shall be nothing more. Loveless.**

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Commented on: Tue May 29, 2007 @ 12:57am


	that is kinda sad kinda ****** too.I know what itz like to have a ****** up life and hide all the things that happen to me

Commented on: Tue May 29, 2007 @ 02:03am


	='[

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Commented on: Tue May 29, 2007 @ 11:28pm


	This is exactly like me. I love it Seth. ._. It's very..Inspiring?

Commented on: Fri Jun 01, 2007 @ 08:31pm


	Be as what you call yourself Heartless failure self centered Lair But you are still hiding you are still afraid why if nothing here can hurt you becuase your heartless... Your not satisfied with what you see in the reflection and yet you love to show all of us you beauty... you call yourself self-center and yet you would change for the people you love but you can't love becuase your heartless you say you have a corrupted mind but a mind can not be corrupted it can't be changed unless you want it to... you call yourself a failure but you havent failed yet you have just began you take pills and abuse yourself but that wont change the pain your feeling right now pain your causing yourself becuase truly no one can hurt you words have no affect on your body or mind unless you let them words are what they are nothing you say you've hurt people but you havnt and if you have saying sorry won't help showing your sorry wont ether pain never goes away so you must learn to live with it i hope you do becuase i truly dont know you but you are a friend i truly love i dont need you to love me becuase if you are truly heartless then you cant show me love or anyone at that fact but we all still love you. seth everything about you is good even if you dont show it don't feel alone in this world becuase thats what cant kill you feeling alone,sad,depressed i should know my parents abandon me and i felt so alone but i learned to live with my demons can you? say what you what about yourself but your everything for those who love you.

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Commented on: Mon Jun 04, 2007 @ 05:20am


	I won't sit here and tell you, "I'm just like you. I hide things. Dude you portrayed me perfectly. I understand you." Because I'm not like you. And because no one really fully understands you, they might think they do because they have or are going through similar things. Yes I hide things, but we all hide different things. Seth you're a great kid, I love you to death. Don't let any other b*****d tell you otherwise because they are just jealous and think of you as a threat. Don't let depression take a hold of you for too long because you're going to drown. But remember you have the people that do love and care about you to help you out of the water. Remember what you said you me, "You know who your real friends are when they call you stupid for doing stupid things."

Commented on: Sat Jun 09, 2007 @ 01:12am


	You have a gift with words my friend... A vortex that sucked me in. I cannot wait to finish reading it, when you complete it of course. Sad part is that I can relate to some of what you're feeling, and here I am trying not to cry. Yeh good luck with that right? Anyway, nice to meet a fellow artist. ~ Glyce

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Commented on: Mon Jun 11, 2007 @ 02:59am


	wow Seth, this is amazing. but it tells me alot more about you. sometimes i feel the exact same way. though no one has the exact same feelings for the same reasons. so im not going to say im like you in every way. because i know im not. but this, is truly amazing. you have talent Seth, dont let anyone tell you otherwise. 3nodding

Commented on: Sun Jun 17, 2007 @ 07:24am


	Hey Babeh. xD Little brother, I don't know if anyone has figured out whether or not that this is not a poem, and they are complimenting you on your poems. xD Though you do write very well, but here you are just ranting. Lol, how is that so amazing that you can just put out your feelings without making it turn into a poem? You have and never will be burden. Don't ever say that or I will pinch you. You've made a difference in my life, I think you may be slowly making me more sane, I haven't twitched, spazzed, I don't slam my head into things anymore, even Emilee hasn't been able to make me stop but you[and Matty helped]. =[ Just because in some peoples lives you haven't made a huge difference doesn't mean you haven't made one. Once again little brother I love you very much, don't cry or hit me but I would die for you. Maybe ten people in the world I would die for and you are one of them, you're special in your way and you are amazing. Don't cry anymore, you're gorgeous when you smile.

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Commented on: Mon Nov 05, 2007 @ 01:07am


	:'[ It's so sad... I don't know what to say....

Commented on: Sun Feb 03, 2008 @ 08:15pm


	Mm. That made me start shaking. It's hard to type. You wrote this a while ago. But, I understand it. No. I've never been through anything to bad. No. I'm not saying I completely understand, just to a certain extent. You're an amazing person, and you know people love you to death. Why ignore it? Let that be your happiness. Everyone is Greedy, Selfish, Self Centered. They just don't admit it. Because people like to judge.

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