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Why Cant You Love Me?

Why should I scream?
Why should I cry?
Why even bother, thinking thoughts of suicide?
I do not need it
The blade on my wrists
I do not need,
These endless nights of my heart crumbling to bits
Is it so hard, to ask for love?
To have all burdens lifted,
To fly like a dove?
I do not understand,
The way of this place
This game we all play,
To survive and see
I can survive,
I'll dream
I will not show you the pain you cause me
I will not cry and scream
Speak of those words,
Tell me you hate me
But I wont let you know, I care
I'll live
I'll try
Just to see that sick smile of yours die
I'll be here,
Ill stand tall
I'll be staying proud
I'll be here, laughing at you frown
Tell me you hate me,
I really don't know
Why is it so hard for you to just leave me alone?
I used to crumble by your words
I used to feel pity about myself
How disgusting I was,
To think I was worthless
I am here today
So stand and breath
Asking a simple question
Please, can you love me?
Love me for what I am
Love me for the monster you call me
Tell me you're proud
And that you never thought I was ugly
Tell me I'll never be able to go to college,
Because I am not smart
Tell me I am worthless
Trash no one would want to even look at,
Not even keep
I hide my whimpers of my past
I hide the thoughts that consumed me of my hate
I'll let you know one thing
I am stronger then you see
I can be a god
I can be a titan
I can fly if I want
I can show the world of what I am
I can tell people I am not afraid
To hear such words of hate
I'll just laugh at your so called 'fate'
I want to be loved,
Isn't that all we want
Someone to hold,
A shoulder to lean on?
Go ahead, call me ugly
Say I was never meant to be born
Tell me of your bitterness
I don't care
I wanted to scream
I wanted to cry
But I know now,
I wont let my chances leave me
I wont be put down by your words
I wont put that knife to my wrist,
You know why?
Because I am better then your pathetic s**t
Come on, tell me you want to hurt me
Tell me I am not smart enough to go to college
Cut me with you words,
You'll never be able to scar me
Are you that jealous?
To pick on an inner child?
Why should I scream?
(I don't have to anymore)
Why should I cry?
(When you mean nothing to me)
Why even bother, thinking thoughts of suicide?
(I am meant to be alive, you will see)
I do not need it
The blade on my wrists
(Why bother, my flesh doesn't deserve this torture)
I do not need,
These endless nights of my heart crumbling to bits
(I don't need your love anymore)
Is it so hard, to ask for love?
To have all burdens lifted,
To fly like a dove?
(Yes it is.... But that doesn't mean you can't try)
I do not understand,
The way of this place
This game we all play,
(The stage of hope we seek)
To survive and see
I can survive,
I'll dream
Something you'll never understand
or see
Tell me I am bitter
That I am just like a killer
Good try, your words no longer hurt me
If you cut me,
I will bleed
If you punch me,
I will bruise
But your words can longer hurt me,
But they can to you
I can say so many things,
I could tell you how much I hate you
(More then the mental scars)
I could go on for hours of all the crap you have done
But, I wont
I'll let it pass by
I'll let it slide forever
(Am I crazy, I got this trait from being around you, all this time)
I know you did this,
To destroy my ambitions, my hope
(It was your plan all along)
But thanks to you,
You made me realize
I don't need you to make me
(I can sculpt myself)
I don't need your words to bring me higher
(I can grow my clipped wings and fly)
I have my spirit, my soul and my will
(The stuff you will never know)
You can no longer hurt me,
Nor shall I let you
(Because, I know you're jealous, because I am better then you)
So I ask you why,
(I ask that a lot now....)
After all I have done,
Suffered and tried
Why,
Why can't you love me?
(What is the real pain you hide?)