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darkness lurks before me, hiding what is there.
Hidden in the shadows, eyes stare at me and glare.

Take a knife make a cut, see how much it bleeds.
Blood running down my arm, watching where it leads.

Sick to my stomach, tired of this life.
Healing my own wounds, blood running from a knife.

Blurry shapes are spinning round, blood dripping off the wall.
Voices in my head are loud, my name they do call.

The pain is slowly going, the light I start to see.
Everything is better now, god has set me free.

The pounding of my heart, fading, fading, gone.
Now I?m given the choice, if I want to be reborn.

My soul is flying free, the air is turning clear.
I?m standing in heaven, god?s voice I now hear.

Do you want a life? A chance to be reborn?
Or do u want to stay, and watch your friends be torn?

I look at my arms, with the scars still there.
The pain is still with me, the pain I could not bear.

Everything is going gray; the warmth has turned to cold.
I listen to what god is saying, a sin I have done I?m told.

My hands begin to shake; no-one can hear me cry.
I don?t know what to do, when I always want to die.

My friends I start to hear, as I lay silent, motionless.
They can?t understand how, god could make me such a mess.

As they sit and cry, I scream from feeling pain.
How could I be so selfish, I only feel ashamed

my head is spinning round, I feel so dizzy and light.
Everything is turning black, I?m watching that very night.

Sitting in the corner, tears falling from my eyes.
Knowing I cant go on , living with all these lies.

I climb up to my desk, and start to write my letter.
Explaining why I did this, and how it would be better.

To my dearest friends, you?re forever in my heart.
I know you tried to help me, but I was unhappy from the start.

I know you might not think so, but for me this is another life.
I couldn?t make it in this one, so I took it with a knife.

Flashes of that night, moving on throughout my mind.
Thinking of my friends, and how they were so kind.

As I watch them closely, they sit they cry they scream.
Watching from up above, it all seems like a dream.

I cannot live like this, I killed myself once before.
Why can?t I walk out, and lock that open door.

Why can?t I forget, and live without this pain.
I no longer want to be, hurt and feeling this blame.

I want to start again, and make a fresh beginning.
To have a happy life, feel like I am living.

I ask god to listen, to give me one more chance.
To make my life exciting, to make me want to dance.

He looks into my eyes, to see my love has gone.
He grants me one last wish, to be giving a chance, reborn.