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Yesterday was a good day. It was me and my girlfriends 8 monthaversary (don't know how to spell it), I got a gwee. I was happy. Then I came home to the parents. I stayed up until around 2 working on it. It was really frustrating. I didn't understand any of the questions. I tried doing what I could but it was useless. After I woke up this morning around 6, I got to talk to my girlfriend. That was a good thing. Then afterwards I was gonna' go back to sleep but my mom came in asking about my homework. When I told her that it wasn't finished she started saying about how I was going to fail high school, I shouldn't even bother anymore, etc. And if that wasn't bad enough, a little bit later she started about my job and how I need to work this weekend even though I'm not even done with training yet. What I heard from all of this was that I fail at life. And she started yelling about how I couldn't stay in her room today, but this is the only room with internet access. So I told her I wasn't going anywhere and now I, once again, need to find another place to live by this weekend or she's calling the police. b***h. The reason I needed to go on today was so that I could talk to all my friends. If I couldn't do that, I would've spent the whole day going over in my head about how I fail at life and probably would've ended up killing myself or something like that. I just don't know what I'm doing anymore. I don't even know why I'm posting all of this for people I've never even met to read and know more about how I feel than my parents do. I'm sick of all of this. I can't take it anymore. ******** all of this s**t! Some people are probably going to think I'm posting this just for attention. Maybe I am. Who knows? Who knows why I do anything anymore? I don't even know where I'm going with this. Maybe it's just a way for me to vent. A place where I can write down my feelings. I had a journal like this once. My parents made me delete it. Journaling makes me feel good though. Instead of keeping everything inside me where it slowly eats away at me until there is nothing left. ******** it.