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Love~?
I’m going to continue writing on to this as I try to make sense of my thoughts and feelings…
Hmm... Love is so overpowering, yet delicate and elusive. I have had my heart broken more than once, and I yearn for the ability to mend it. So with the broken heart one searches, desiring more love to fill the void?
I have many long-distance friends. A few of them I hold so dear to me, more than some of my friends at school. I have watched a friend’s internet relationship grow and flourish, only to come crashing down. I helped each of them as much as I could and yet I could not help that distance kept their relationship from continuing. So…knowing that, why would I begin to feel this way about someone I met over the internet? How could I express my feelings without causing such pain? Still…. I feel I want to try. But at the same time, I feel scared. We have such a wonderful friendship! But in reality, we really don’t know much about eachother. I want to get to know her better… but how could I ask? I’m afraid she will shy away from me… you hear so many horrible stories about internet relationships. I’m so confused!… Let’s see… we met each other long ago, becoming very good friends. Another friend of mine couldn’t believe how much time we spent Role-playing. It’s what brought us together. We had so much fun, our creativity building an incredible world… then something happened and we didn’t speak to eachother for such a long time. Then we began a little conversation one day no more than… a month and a half ago? It all seems like a blur… that simple conversation built into a magnificent role-play~! Using ourselves as the characters, it made us that much more involved. More emotional and beautiful than anything I have read in ages… It certainly wasn’t long before it became intimate. *^-^* As our “characters” became closer and closer, eventually falling in love… it felt like were getting closer in reality. It may just be my foolish hopes, but I’m really beginning to think I love her. Yes… love. It’s so hard not knowing how she feels… I know she will read this. I’m scared, but excited as well. I’ve been thinking about it for a while, and I feel it’s time I must know. I find myself mindlessly browsing Gaia just waiting for her reply! It hurts me when I have to leave her, and when I can’t be talking to her. Still, I’m so scared that it will turn out wrong, that it this is all just my imagination, causing our friendship to fall apart. Oh… I would do anything to prevent that!
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