Ok so I'm just gonna rant
Ive always though internet dating was stupid, but yet here I am dating Hamolot (Hamish) and it was great for awhile. But than..I mean Its just hard for me to believe he loves me I mean I never believe anyone loves me no matter how many times they say it but with him its even harder to believe. Cause he just doesn't make me feel loved even when he says it a lot of it is he doesn't show a sexual interest in me and its not like I'm horny but anyone who knows me really well knows I have problems believing emotional stuff or mental and when someone hugs me or nuzzles me or whatever like Scott does all the time than its a physical thing and I feel loved. And than theres other guys like Joe and stuff who call me baby and beautiful and stuff as a name like whats up beautiful ya know, and that shows affection Hamish never does anything like that..And Ive never seriously considered dumping him and I wont this is just a rant but still I mean..I just don't feel loved, and also like today I was talking to him and Chris on MSN in the same convo and it would take a lot of physical action between me and Chris for Hamolot to care, but yet when I just layed in Hamish's lap Chris got jealous. I mean Chris was showing that he wanted to be the only one I snuggled with, and I mean Hamish is my bf you'd think he would want that to. But he doesn't seem to he just doesn't seem to really love me..
Ok I'm done with my rant now
Don't expect me to dump him soon or anything I'm just ranting
Ive always though internet dating was stupid, but yet here I am dating Hamolot (Hamish) and it was great for awhile. But than..I mean Its just hard for me to believe he loves me I mean I never believe anyone loves me no matter how many times they say it but with him its even harder to believe. Cause he just doesn't make me feel loved even when he says it a lot of it is he doesn't show a sexual interest in me and its not like I'm horny but anyone who knows me really well knows I have problems believing emotional stuff or mental and when someone hugs me or nuzzles me or whatever like Scott does all the time than its a physical thing and I feel loved. And than theres other guys like Joe and stuff who call me baby and beautiful and stuff as a name like whats up beautiful ya know, and that shows affection Hamish never does anything like that..And Ive never seriously considered dumping him and I wont this is just a rant but still I mean..I just don't feel loved, and also like today I was talking to him and Chris on MSN in the same convo and it would take a lot of physical action between me and Chris for Hamolot to care, but yet when I just layed in Hamish's lap Chris got jealous. I mean Chris was showing that he wanted to be the only one I snuggled with, and I mean Hamish is my bf you'd think he would want that to. But he doesn't seem to he just doesn't seem to really love me..
Ok I'm done with my rant now
Don't expect me to dump him soon or anything I'm just ranting
