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i figured since this is like an official journal and no one reads it, i can post all of my latest poems in it.

we'll start with the worst one:
Best Friend

They say love is being with your best friend
And if that’s true, you and I should end
I consider you a dear friend, but I’m just the girlfriend
We both know who is your best friend

We’ll be talking of random things and stuff
And something will always bring that girl up
Whether it’s a band or the color on a cup
You think I’m getting tired of it? Yup!

I don’t even really know this girl
But just the sound of her name makes me wanna hurl
Cause on days I dress cute and have my hair curled
When talking to her, she’d hold your entire world

I don’t have any idea on what to do
People say I should talk about it with you
But that would be too hard for me to do
Especially since, on this topic, you’d have no clue

So I guess I’ll live with this feeling
Instead of getting down and kneeling
Because even though my fragile heart’s peeling
My words will just float to the ceiling…







The music is soothing
As my walls come crashing down
It fills up my ears
And drowns out the sounds

The sounds of hatred
Are left behind
As only the lyrics
Float through my mind

They tell of a love
So innocent and sweet
If only it were real
With someone to meet

Someone who’d save me
From all of my fears
But there’s never someone like that
Not in my 17 years…




i like this one a lot

Lost and Alone

I’m lost and alone –
Won’t you come find me?
I’m scared of the dark –
Won’t you come save me?
I’m cold and shivering –
Won’t you come warm me?
I’m sick of everything –
Won’t you come support me?
I’m afraid to be loved –
Won’t you come hug me?
I’m worried of a broken heart –
Won’t you come fix me?
I’m lost and alone –
Won’t you come find me?


and this one:

“Goodbye, goodnight, farewell, sweet dreams…”

Words I long to say
As you go to bed
When you’re thinking
About her instead

You parted with “I love you”
And a quick kiss on the cheek
Leaving me wishing
I had the courage to speak

To ask you what you truly
Think of your “best friend”
So I have enough warning
Before my heart hits the end

So I won’t keep on dreaming
Of a hopeful life
So I’ll know if you’ll cause me
Heartache and strife

You say you wish for me
To come and live with you
But is that really and truly
What you want me to do

Or do you just say it
To make me smile
Like you’ve been doing
For quite a long while

You’d shake your head
If you ever read this
And you’ll pull me close
And give me a kiss

“Baby, that’s not true”
You’ll say with a frown
“You’re the only girl for me
Within this whole town”

I smile as the tears
Roll down my sad face
To ask you about this
Is just not my place

I’ll let you continue
Leading me on
Smiling as you joke,
Kiss, hug, and fawn

I’ll silently be dreading
For that day to come
When my hands get all clammy
And my heart starts to hum

It know its breaking
All because of you
Because you honestly can’t say
“I love you, too.”



Cherry Blossoms

The cherry blossoms fall
Symbolizing the end
The end to everything
Everything that was once happy and good
The end to everything,
My hope
My love
My life…
As each petal hits the ground
They shudder because it’s cold
Cold like those around me
Who walk past with smiles
Not realizing I’m through
With hope
With love
With life…
Children run through the debris
As my emotions run through mine
The debris of my heart is cutting
Cutting through the lost joy
And the never-ending strife
Of hope
Of love
Of life…
The pink petals once living
Now lay dead around the tree
Like my heart, broken in my chest
Leaving me wishing I could die
So I don’t have to deal
With hope
With love
With life…




You can start with a group date
And we’ll see how it goes
That’s what you said
As you tweaked my nose

So I got together some friends
And sat them all down
“How would you guys feel
About a night on the town?”

“We could go see a movie,”
Missy piped up
“How bout Fantastic 4”
She said, draining a cup

So we all agreed to it
We’d go Friday night
But just as always
Our plan didn’t turn out right

I was invited to teen night
By a very needy friend
And Melissa went to the movies alright
With our older sister in the end

Justin came with me
And swam in the pool
As I tried to not think of her
And how she said it’d be cool

Justin and I planned
To go some other time
But he went without me
Not that that is a crime…

But through all of this
I’ve felt quite alone
It hurts me so much
I just wanna cry and moan

Missy with our older sister
And Justin with the guys
“Let’s go see a movie”
Is a plan, albeit not wise

Who knows who will leave you
To go with someone different
And when it comes down to it
It’ll turn out, I’ll never have went




All I wanted…

They don’t understand
That all I want is love
That I want to be held
And told everything will be alright…
They lecture me constantly
Telling me what to do
They don’t see that you could give me
All I have ever wanted
That you could give me the love I crave
And when I cry, you kiss the tears
Trying to comfort me, because of them
They don’t see the pain they cause
And that my emotions are crossed
They may be blind to my feelings
But I can see clearly
And I see that, with you,
I have everything I’ve ever wanted…



so there you have them