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everything i do always...ends up hurting someone...mainly me...
i go and be a friggin b***h and...i wish god would fulfill my only wish...to die...
im not kidding...ive planned out my death if he/she wont give me instant death...

1) i make everyone hate me...so they wont remember me...ever...again...
2) i find a deserted building and...
3) jump...
4) watever they are...will eat my body inside-out...outside-in...
5) or ill just rott...then the rain will wash away the remains...
6) then im going to hell...where i work to death...be tortured by watever...

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or i could just stay...here alive...in guilt, pain, and suffering...
the hurt...i played them...2 people that cared for me...i was a complete fool...
i guess i was so depressed over one...i needed another...this was new...
no excuses...just...just...misery...i...im so sorry...you guys hate me...i dont mind...
but please...dont hate each other once you find out...
hate me...curse me...but dont do anything harsh to yourselves...