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i feel depressed for some reason. im always depressed but,... i feel like i did when i was in public school befor summer got out....
i feel like s**t.... ive been sick of life ever since 6th grade.... and im afraid... afraid that i might do something the next time somwthing bad happens in my life....
i feel like ive been so tempted.. to just grab my depression pills that dont even work and just... take them all at once. i feel like that alot lately... like i wanna quit... i just wanna give up... i feel like its getting to be too hard.
thats why i spend my day asleep, so i can dream..... im so upset most the time, i cant even eat... but i always try to stay alive, i make myself eat, for my friends and my friends alone... my friends that live within walking distance, Cheyenne and Adam, they help me most of all, but there are only 4 friends keeping me alive, if i lost any of them, i would literaly give up and die. if i lost one of the 4 closest members of my family, i would die. im scared, but i keep going anyway. i realise im lucky to have such wonderful people in my life.