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To a friend Dear friend....What happened to you? Is it me? Most likely.... You probably don't want to deal with me Quite understandable.....I don't even want to deal with me I just want to know.......why? Why do you distance yourself from me? Why do you always have to get your way in a conversation? Why can't you be fun anymore? Why can't you talk to me like you did before? Why can't do I have to tell you to come online? Why don't you rush to my aid when I'm in dire need of caring? Why must I always wait long periods of time before I see a post from you pertaining to me? Just why? I see not the friend I use to see before. You probably will say that you haven't changed But within my eyes, you have. We use to laugh constantly when talking to one another We use to do the most randomness of things. We use to speak to one another every day, on MSN or either pm's Now, we hardly even do that,and when we do.... I just feel slightly bad, since you speak like your so logical and high and mighty..... But it is ok When I was super depressed and such, all you said was Good luck... Like luck will help me..... I bet you probably don't care about this, so why read ? I just wonder is will you remember me or will I get the old friend back, even once? One that would open up to me, one to talk to me, the one that would rush over quickly I'm use to you forgetting my posts and comments, I just hope..... You don't forget me....... But what contradicts is that, over time, everyone shall be forgotten, right? Not sure Why should I worry now? I should just try and keep talking to you..... Even if it isn't much..... I'm happy now,no longer depressed, though..... I'm still slightly sadden Do not worry,Miss Em will get better.......

Posted by: earthangelz Sun Jun 24, 2007 @ 07:09pm

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Commented on: Mon Jun 25, 2007 @ 07:11am


	Hmmm....

Commented on: Mon Jun 25, 2007 @ 02:03pm


	Hmm? o.O

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Jiang Sun-Woo
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Commented on: Thu Aug 30, 2007 @ 05:31am


	Hmm, indeed.

Commented on: Sat Sep 01, 2007 @ 01:56pm


	You both confuse me x.x

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Commented on: Sat Sep 08, 2007 @ 07:39pm


	This sounds like me... ^^; Goddamn... Honestly, I don't know what to say to this... Let's see... One line at a time is always good, I guess... Each line corresponds to each line of yours... What happened to me? It isn't you... Maybe it seems that way, but it's not... That's sad... =/ Why? I don't try to distance myself... I dunno about that... I have inferiority complexes... I can be fun when I'm happy... But I'm not happy often enough... I thought it never changed... Because I don't think about it... I don't know when you're in dire need... Why don't you just tell me? Straight up, just say 'I'm in dire need of caring'... I must admit, a lot of the time, I forget... Other times, I just don't have a good feel for it... You know what excites me, or you should... (SO WRONG! >< wink Uhh... Why not? ( <- I hear that's the answer you're supposed to give...) Even I don't know myself all that well... I probably would... What's changed? I think I've asked this before, but the answer should come as obvious to me... It DOESN'T... X.x Sometimes we still do, don't we? Random things... We talk on PMs now... I'm going to assume this is a tad outdated, but some things still apply, I guess... This goes back to inferiority complex, I guess... I have to feel smart, otherwise, I feel inept at everything I do... It's just okay? ... I feel a familiar feeling inside of me... Right now... All I can remember is that you were depressed; I didn't think it was that bad... Plus, I can't deal with death very well... Luck, hope, faith, you name it... I only just read now, so I'm slow... ^^; Since when have I forgotten your existence? I feel a sword in my side... That one hurt... My face feels funny... I haven't forgotten you... And, evidently, you're still there for me when I need it... I wonder why I haven't been... Over time, memory fades... People cease... But we don't really know the answers to that... The Lethe makes you forget... That, in itself, is only legend... It's impossible to know... You were worried enough to make a journal entry about it... That, you have... I wonder what else there is to you... It's helped a lot, trust me... I'm afraid of being alone... Are you really happy? Are you anxiously waiting, hoping, craving for me to read this? Are you waiting for my reaction? Personally, I've thought of you as a sad person, despite how you show yourself... Anyone can recover from a cold over time...

Commented on: Tue Sep 11, 2007 @ 11:32pm


	Number one thing is that you have to look at the date. Jun 24, lol. That date, I was just having so much going on with me. I had people trying to ****** up my life, I wanted to solve others' problems, school, etc. When I was on gaia, I just didn't get much appreciation from my friends. They mainly wanted me to do things for them, for the rp I made. I got no thanks. When I was having a breakdown, no one really came to my side. Dustin did, yes, and I'm thankful. But, none of my friends actually Pmed me to see if I'll be ok. I was going through a rough time and I was having a lot of scares. Like friends saying they were committing suicide or my friend was raped, etc. I felt so helpless. Good luck didn't help much. When I had a breakdown before, you instantly rushed to msn and such, that time, you didn't. Oh well, remember, this is all in the past. I am truly happy though school is being a bh and it ain't fun, except world history.That was. Man my teacher can't draw xD. Indeed, we have been talking more on PMs, my entire inbox is of your Pms. They really need to figure out a better plural form of Pm. No one wants PMS, it's bad xD Truly, you do not need to worry and sorry if I hurt you. Really T.T I actually wasn't waiting for a response. Usually no one really responds in my journals. I should add a new one sooner or later. ninja* -huggles- Either way, me happy and I hope you are happy.

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