Memories of the days of my sadness flood my mind.I stare out the window at the rain and wish "If only it could wash it all away".Im in love but my past haunts me and brings back my tears."Help me.Make it go away!Stop the torture of my own mind!"He holds me close and tells me its ok, but it isnt its never was.I'm trapped in a dream.im falling into a never ending hole. As i fall i watch pitures of happiness burn and sadness appear.I scream but only tears dance around me.I cant wake up.The scars appear back on my wrist. Time goes backwards.my writs start to bleed.visions of the terror falls apon my eyes.I grab out for my love but he has disapeared.Im forever lost in a dream.The stars sing to me as i fall farther and farther.I scream for time to stop and fast forward not back."why?! I thought it was over!I dont want to be who i was before...but it seems i cant escape it."I am me I cant change. My eyes can see differently but my mind remebers it all.
Now time goes farther bak.I feel him hitting me as I suffacating in his painfull words.The pain of it strikes me like whips slapping the once smooth skin.Im falling into the past...into my nightmare.The stars begin to slowly fade away."Dont go!!"I scream.I see only blackness.I hear my mothers screams and tast my brothers blood on my lips.
"I...I give up.Take me to my past.I dont care anymore.If it means starting over then I know how to fix it...right?If I chang my past will it change my future?Will i ever see the one I love.Will my mother be happy?Will this endless dream come back?..."
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