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confused I'm utterly convinced that this is true. I'm just a soldier in the field, learning day by day, moment to moment...how to survive. I look at it with excitement and fear most of the time...considering you never know what lies around the next corner, or what situations will arise, forcing you to either charge onward and learn, or fall back and lose a piece of yourself in the mess. I believe the reason to try your best every day, is the reason that living is loving, and being loved in return. Everything else falls into place when you show compassion and understanding and sympathy. cool I found that when you really care about people, their problems and needs....it doesn't matter what they do...you love them. Yes you can feel hurt, or angry...scared and unsure...but beneath it all you know you care, you want the best for yourself and others. xp I am full of emotions these days, the fast few have been pretty crazy. I've had to do things I never ever wanted to, but knew I had to eventually. sad Inside I've got butterflies...good and bad ones...and new courage. I did what I was scared to do, and now I am free. 3nodding The liberty, the peace of mind that comes with doing the right thing even when I was scared is incredible. Honesty is worth it..even when the people around you do not understand why you do the things you do. It pays off, maybe not right away...but in the long run.
I'm so greatful for people who care...even small acts of kindness give me the determination t keep trying, that this life isn't as hopeless and shapeless as some people have come to believe. It's a matter of digging to the deepest portions of yourself and liberating them from whatever has pulled you down. You don't have to be sad, or angry..or unhappy. No matter what your situation, you can pull through. 3nodding
Anyways...I'll run over a couple things I've been doing. Been going to school, I just started my new classes and all of them are required courses. mad I've got math, world civ, and Soph lit. I am really struggling with a few math concepts...I've got a lot of reviewing to do...but I'm confident that I'll do alright in the end. The weather here has been nice for the majority, it was 72 I think, yesterday....I went out in the sun for a few minutes...it felt awesome. whee biggrin I love the sensation of my skin warming up....it's like a giant blanket just got settled over me. I also had time to admire the trees..they look weird from that angle, and with the little breeze blowing through them, they wobbled back and forth all slo-mo-ish. OH! and I saw a cloud formation that looked like a perfect smiley face..it was hilarious....and random. smile
Hmm...I've also been workin on that painting a bit more, It's looking better, but I've still got a TON to do..such as the background.... eek gonk I've never done a full fledged painting before...soooo..this'll be my experiment. biggrin I hope Ty likes it in the end. whee heart
Hmm..oooo, yeah..I'm gonna be donating blood at the end of this month...I'm scared and excited all at once...I have one REALLY bad experience with getting blood drawn...and it hurt..and it got me scared of needles....but whatever, giving blood is gonna be awesome...it just makes me wonder who will be using it, why....and..stuff. neutral I hope they live! O+ peeps ROCK! surprised
Vhat Elsh....watched Brother Bear last night...erm....I ate my little sisters nerds..hee....and..my sister got a job, and I need one...
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LOOK at my old apartments-ness! I lived in the second story of the front building towards the left...ish... blaugh
MAH oULD HOOSE!
TheTyro · Sun Apr 24, 2005 @ 12:06am · 1 Comments |
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