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I just failed my first subject ever. I've always been an A/B student and when i got to uni it was Credits and passes first semester and Credits and distinctions the second semester. And I just failed my first subject in my entire life.
I'm feeling pretty crappy right now, in fact, i just spent the last 40 min crying my eyes out. cry I would be fine it I thought that i had done badly in the subject, but i thought that i was doing alright. Not spectacular, but alright- maybe a low Credit. Now i get this kick in the baby-maker. I have to take a supplementary exam on academic grounds- how horrible does that sound? Basic mumbo-jumbo translation= secondary exam on the basis that you were too dumb to pass the first one.
I have no idea how i'll study for it or even what I'll change. Right now i'm REALLY hoping that it's a clerical error even though I know that it's probably not the case.
I expect that i'll become angry pretty soon and I feel that a large part of me failing was due to my tutor/lecturer's tendency to be so "easygoing" that she was completely unclear as to what she expected from me outside of tutorial discussions. I really really really don't want to do the makeup exam. I'm afraid that i'll doubt all my answers and that i'll do even worse than before.
My mum suggested that i talk with some of the people from my class, but I don't really know anyone in it that well to ask that kind of thing. Plus, i'm not entirely sure whether my lecturer is a hard marker or she just hates the way I write...