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The life of zuriku
Yeah, A dumbass.
Friggin i am a a*****e, Yeah i know it- but i hate the online world and what not, And very few people are going to read this, And hopefully Jessica will >_> a/w
I really am an a*****e, Or dumbass or somthing, I spend so much time on drawing i really dont care enough to talk to people, Or exsept my remaining friends, I'm more worried about drawing than i am meeting people- And i keep on telling my self that im going start to make friends and all that crap after school-( i live in california so all the chicks are getting pregnate and all of the dudes are ******** dumbasses or assholes) But its a REG highschool for a typicall teenage life. ANOTHER THING IS- Is that i knew a few people who drew and were really good drawers, But then they took the summer off, And then when they went back to drawing in school, THEY COULDNT EVEN DO HALF THE CRAP THEY USED TO- So im super paranoid about not drawing.. and if i draw more then ill get better a/w so Its 50/50 deal. But most of all i just deal with assholes or think about how shitty there futures are going to be- Another thing is-.. Is that i am a C- to a D student, and i really want to get into GAME DESIGN and animation and i want to go to college first but im afriad that i wont get in one DX.. ;.;, But i also want to do alot of internships also so..

ONe thing is that I'm not dumb when it comes to relationships and love- I just want to find somebody who is into art and originality as much i am, And as goofy irl as i am :p, That goes along with me finding someone after school- XD and i know-.. Im totally desperate- I'm just to the point to where im not caring most of the time, But there are these moments where i just want to be with someone, not sexually or any of that junk Ya'know just Being with them Talking to them, Holding them just basic things, I just want to know that somebody can love me more than just as a son or a relitive, As they LOVE me is actully good enough for me, I just feel like meeting a chick is going to be harder than ever after highschool, But who knows-
Anything is possible with me..

MY PERFECT DREAM LIFE>
It is a small little japanese house that is surrounded by a background of forrest trees, And it never stops snowing- To where i am just with me, My wife and a kid. And when you go out the front door you see nothing but a white wasteland of snow, But when you turn around you see the trees, And as i live i paint and paint and paint pictures for hours at end. Then i would have a special room to where all i do is just paint the walls with strange- Yet beutifull surroundings, Along with a fire place in the living room to keep the place cozy, BUT when we are just sitting around conversing Doing our didle dadle we wear blankets because were cold a/w :3, and we all start to get warm knowing its always going to be cold eventhough we have these snuggly warm blankets X3.

Wow that sounded so gay But i dont care XD Thats the life i want >_>






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Jarzhiz
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commentCommented on: Tue Sep 02, 2008 @ 02:39am
Well, now you are mine soooooooooo, yeah. :"D
AND YES I have read this a few times...I'm just now commenting it.


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