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mm...am I always being ignored? man..today at school at lunch...I'm starting to think that my friends, who I actually sit with are not really my friends...I mean, they are ignoring me and whenever I talk, they just stare at me and do nothing...then they go back to whatever they are doing....its driving me nuts! stressed I can't stand it anymore...only one among my whole friends actually talks to me... and it does make sense cause she's my best friend...I'm starting to feel that I should forget about them and look for new ones...Mary..one of them...has really changed..she used to be the cool one but now she's all bitchy and mean and well...boring...same as the others..there really is nothing to talk about with them...I feel left out...and so all my days I ignore them and talk only to Rikku or I just lay my head on the table and start to drift to my own world. sweatdrop Rikku is the one who always had understood me and feels the same way...what friends they really are...I guess I should forget and seek new friends stressed scream ...which totally sux. sighs I really am ignored in the world and sometimes on gaia too... sweatdrop stressed ...I have no place where I could actually go...darkness surrounds me every day...the only world I really have is anime and in my dreams...that's the only place....were I can be heard and actually be accepted and be talked to...otherwise....there is no other place...

Posted by: Athira_Korigashine Sat May 07, 2005 @ 12:24am

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Commented on: Sat May 07, 2005 @ 02:58am


	I swear your becoming just like your sister. You guys are like twins....Boy the hardships of growing up...it sux...I remember 8th grade....It was one of my funnest years yet another sad one...and perhaps your friend has a reason for being bitchy. Maybe something is troubling her. Like a problem at home or soemthing. Everyone has a reason for there actions, and dont want to say what is on there minds. Talk to them about it. I understand how you feel, I was there,still kinda am. Anime,dreams, its my focus as well......oy....dont feel alone or sad like you have no friends. your true friends stick by you, and Im one of them. if you ever need someone to talk to just pm me or talk to me. Im here even though it may seem that I am not. I try and always be there for my friends. It is my mission to help them in any way I can.

Commented on: Sat May 07, 2005 @ 04:56pm


	That sucks, but at least one of your friends on gaia (me) wont forget you!

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Commented on: Tue May 17, 2005 @ 09:46pm


	how is she like me?..we don't have the same feelings! eek sweatdrop blaugh ..that's just weird..i don't act like that right?...and Kurama you do know that i do care about you and that the whole family tree thingy kinda made think that you are my bestfriend..thanx! 3nodding blaugh heart

Commented on: Sat May 21, 2005 @ 08:02am


	I went through that, i drifted form table to table though. Untill around 8th grade with jos. I still got ignored. Everyone does. I know it may seem like your probely the only one being left out at the momment but as you grow you start to see more on the backgrounds of your surroundings. I've always seen the kids in the background just sitting there alone, crying sometimes and i've also seen the ones who are really happy. It's hard not to have a best friend or a really close friend. I know cuz right now. Yea jos and liz and brenda and ...etc. are all there but i don't really trust them with my feelings. ( yes this may hurt you guys on what i'm saying but it's the truth) And that you feel that you just wanna be accepted by people around you. But people are different and friends come and go. It's not a matter of how long they are there to have them count as a good friend. It's how they made an impact on your life when they were there. People split apart and usally it will happen again going into highschool. I dunno what i'm saying or what point exactly that i'm tryin to get at i'm just saying random stuff that is comeing to my mind that well probely just annoying you somehow. And also don't focuse (sp?) so much on the bigger things in life , pay attention to the small things like someone makeing you smile. And if you want to be happy your the only person who can make that happen. And if your sad your makeing yourself sad cuz you make your world based on your feelings based on your own self actions..... it's your choice to be happy or not. And since your feeling ignored maybe talk to them and if you can't then that proves they weren't really that good of friends if you can't have a conversation on how your feel. yea you may think that they don't care but alot of them do but don't know how to show it in your way. They show it in theirs, so you miss it. and so on... ok this has gotten umm long so yea sorry about this....

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Commented on: Sun May 22, 2005 @ 03:44pm


	Hehe..nice Misa...yeah i know..it really doens't hurt me that u don't open up as mich to us but when ur ready we'll be here..and i'm sorry if u think that i stole Jos. away from you...

Commented on: Tue May 24, 2005 @ 05:14am


	thank guys! I tried talking to them but they ignore me..but it blaugh 3nodding doesn't matter 'cuz u guys are there for me right?

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Commented on: Tue May 24, 2005 @ 08:43pm


	o.O I don't think you stole joslyn from me...besides someone can only get stolen if they want to in that situation and yes... I'll be there for you...even though the last time i saw you was....uuuuuh... sweatdrop

Commented on: Wed May 25, 2005 @ 01:20am


	laughs at Souless hiei..yeah..I haven't seen u for a long time.. blaugh

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Commented on: Thu May 26, 2005 @ 12:49pm


	I don't hang out with people alot... neutral

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